haha. nw waiting while my farm is being harvested! haha. all hargao, xr n baby's fault! ask me play wat farmville. nw i everyday spend time harvesting n planting. bt well.. it's nt as if i wld haf mugged harder w.o playin tt. bt def can cut some time everyday. esp today. haha. can't believe i'm starting w IH. hahaha.
yep. 2weeks away from A's. n i'm still like tt. haha. i found tt kind of "nevermind if i dun do THAT well" feel tt i had wen takin O's and PSLE. of coz those thoughts came after knowing tt i dun haf much time to study n kinda thoughts to comfort myself n to think of wat kind of hou4 lu4 i've. hahaha. yep. same for nw.
haha.i'm happy tt i found tt feeling coz it seemed like those feelings helped me get my good grades at e 2 previous national exams? hahaha. n i couldn't find tt feeling for the past few weeks. haha. actually nothin to be proud of. coz i realised tt i'm quite blessed. i haven't been through any big waves or problems in my 18years of life. nt tt i wan any. n i think i'm still v happy being e noob, unexposed me. bt i'm jus a little afraid tt if a big wave really comes, i might not be able to handle it.
hmm. n well. for this time. i guess i shall see whether am i going to be blessed like forever. lol. yep. nt tt if i get my good grades, i wld continue to slack(though i can't promise i'll work damn damn hard after this). bt yep. let this be a test. lol.. i'm nt like tryin to try my luck.. bt i'm really interested to see how did i manage to get my good grades previously given my damn slack attitude. n of coz i'm harbouring such thots(nt tt i tink they are evil or anythin:P) COZ... again. i'm nt studyin v hard for A's n there isn't much time left for me. hahaha. yep. so back-up thoughts:P hehe.
yep. bt i guess i shld be quite well-prepared shld i really fall this time. if i dun attain a min. of all B(maybe C for GP). i might considering retaking. for pride maybe? i mean if it's like all Cs la. n of coz if i can't get into any course, i definitely haf to retake my A's. n oh man. compete w those mugger J1s. hahaha. cannot insult them. they are jus being hardworking. well. bt honestly, i dun tink i wld end up in tt state. all Bs maybe possible.n even likely. bt dun tink i wld be at risk of nt gettin into any courses ba. bearing in mind tt e course tt i wan to get into has e requirement of BBC/B. hehe. yep.
hmm. other things i really can't predict. infinite no of possibilities. i wun spend time to think bout them. at least nt now. maybe after exams end n b4 gettin results n i've all e time in e world to worry. hahaha. yep.
hmm. n i jus tink tt all As is impossible. nt even e 4H2s coz of history n econs which i'm very uncertain of. yep. bt no matter wat. wat i tell my frens nw is wat i really think i wld get. so if i really taico get all As, jus hope tt they wun misunderstand me n think tt i'm one of those who like to say nv study nv study den come out own everyone. yep. i believe they'll understand de la. n like i always say, those who dun understand, aren't worth my effort to explain coz frens who're worth keeping are those who would understand. hahaha. sard rite?:P lol.
yep. bt well. again. jus think only. really dun tink i'm capable of that tho i believe it's everyone's dream to get that n i'm one of them. haha. yep.
n one other thing is tt other than being happy for finding that feeling so tt there might be a chance of me gettin good grades, i'm also happy for findin that feeling coz i jus feel alot more relaxed(actually it's sth more than this, but i can't rmb wat). hopefully i can be less competitive(not that i'm VERY now n tho i feel that i'm copin v well w e competition) n not think of comparing w hargao.
haha. coz prelims her results overall was better than mine. den same clique(perhaps i shldn't use this. coz she seems more to belong to ling's clique and somehow using clique is like v immature. coz i tink now, nobody cares bout clique? yep. i'm relyin on it to give me some sense of security in a class that's so diversed n e main culture isn't sth tt i'm used to. but i'm still quite okay coz i guess in JC, dun harbour too high hopes of finding buddies for life, tho i hope n think tt hargao is a probable one. n hopefully baby, zeni n xinru la). haha. yep. back 2 my point. coz same clique so haf e tendency to compare. bt this morn i tink i thot of ka's eg. n i jus feel that e feeling of "losing" isn't tt strong anymore? n in a sense. even if she do better. i guess she deserve it ba. coz at this last lap, she is chionging harder than me. haha. yep. n i jus think of e possibility of her being unhappy at me doin better than me n me being sad, n me nt wantin tt to happen to her(as in e reverse). i jus stop comparin. i tink it's sth like ka being v happy i did well for one of the subjects or sth in sec 4 den me feelin guilty for comparin w her so much. yep. bt honestly. i dun tink my competitiveness n e desire to do better is super super strong yet n i tink i've been quite capable of handling it as in i wun feel very very upset. haha. tho e credit doesn't go to my capability, bt rather my inherent character:P haha. yep.
bt well. comparin w ka, norine they all. i'll. nt coz they wld mock at me for bein lousier bt dunno, jus e feeling of wantin to be stronger than ppl who're doin well to show my capability. jus like comparin w kong4 kong4 like tt. bt again. i tink i'm handlin well. n somehow after bein in a class of slackers, real slackers, i guess i enjoy e feelin of jus being slightly better than average(sth that jia lao shi had been emphasising since i was in P6). e joy of it coz of e non-necessity to worry bout others outshining me, and me underperforming. perhaps it's a kind of escapism? bt not to me. yep. haha. perhaps coz inside me, i still haf tt slight desire of doing well n i can enjoy that joy is coz i'm considered not bad in my class. so there's still tt little bit of feeling of being better. hehe. yep.
bt there are ppl whom i really wan them to do well, never thought of competing w them(i mean i do think of wat will happen if they outshine me, bt e conclusion is jus= i wld be happy) and really really hope that they wld do well. they are ancestor, tong and tb-mate. ancestor coz of her hardwork and thus her deserving good grades, e latter 2 coz they're really good frens of mine. i mean ancestor, ka, norine they all are also good frens of mine la. yep. n i forgot tard too. n maybe coz tard n tong really wan to go overseas n they aren't doin well now. n tb-mate maybe coz of him renderin me a lot of help n thus my appreciation n thus hope tt he wld do well. yep.
others like matt, baby, hargao, zeni n twin. i wld wan them to do well too. bt i also do tink of competin w them. eh. maybe nt for matt. yep. n for twin, i tink coz we always like lose to each other at alternate exams. it's like e feeling of losin has been experienced b4 already. n i tink coz he's been really v nice to him(tho i tink e reverse is true too), so wun haf tt kind of worry tt he wld outshine me or anythin. n v impt-ly, i really tink i smarter than him:P haha. or maybe my studyin method works better? haha. yep.
norman is kinda quite a strong competitor of mine. i think all coz of physics. lol. yep. bt of coz i mus say tt even there is competition, i definitely still do wan them to do well. yep. n i mean it!
yep. haha. i kinda did analysis. haha. yep. i forgot xr. same thing. wan her to do well. got compete b4. bt no bad feelings. same as hargao.
yep yep. i like damn free sia. nid to go do study ih le la. haha. if nt really kena own by twin jiu4 cham, like wat he says, it's alright to lose, but cannot kena owned. hahaha.
yep yep. n i mus say tt ppl whom i've mentioned above are definitely still ppl whom i hope we can stay as buddies/good frens/frens for long de. yep. even w all e competition that has existed/still existing. yep. healthy competition. haha. yep. n i'm sure that feelin is diminishin now. hehe. yep. mus say in case it causes any misunderstanding in future. yep.
kheng(:
27/10/09
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
farewell assembly
oh well. today's e farewell assembly for the SH2s. well. i really think it sucked. as in there were no chairs. e first thing tt greeted us wen we walked in was "SH2 Prelim results analysis". no performance. jus made us do cheers(which was damn funny because of xinru!!! hahaha). yep. n there's this nice video. n kinda tt's all? it's like totally different from RV's. haiz.
RV's one made us miss e school so much. cried. community singing for e last time. n many many more. bt well. perhaps i can only say tt we've grown up? n it's nt always bout all e crying n can't let go stuff ba. bt well. i really think e farewell assembly was not memorable at all. lol.
but well. our class did a very nice black book for miss lim! haha. it's kinda belated happy teachers' day present. hehe. bt as in it's v nice. coz e black book itself was v cool. den e photos made it v colourful. n there's our nice n sweet messages. haha. tho some was a bit nt tt long. bt well. i cannot doubt ppl's sincerity. haha. yep. bt i really think e thing was damn well done. as in v cool n nice lo. haha.
yep. n miss lim sent an email to thank us. haha. i expected it. bt it's really long. n first time i feel miss lim talking to us on a really personal level. like sayin she really enjoy e times w our class. haha. yep. tho i'm really impressed by her efficiency n constant "naggings". bt i always feel tt she's more of jus getting her job done. bt tt email jus now was v touching. haha. yep. n towards e back, can't believe she still put announcements! man! haha. bt she printed an extra copy of entry proof for all of us. really really touched by her gesture.
haha. n i tink coz only matthew n i wrote tt it's a belated teachers' day present for her. so she knew we initiated it. n it's always e 2 of us who're more enthu bout doin such stuff. haha. yep. n she mentioned our names specially in e email.so i v happy!:P haha. yep. n really thankful tt i checked w matthew to buy sth for miss lim. haha. n he gave e suggestion of writing sth for her as a class. wow. damn cool! i really like our effort alot alot!:P hahaha.
yep. bt i missed gatherin w 4a today at e oasis. bt i guess for miss lim n her email jus nw, it's worthwhile(: haha. n e whole farewell assembly, i was busy gettin ppl to write n paste n choose photos. haha. yep.
bt hor, today nid to collect CIP certs from everyone in e class back. n i couldn't rmb e instructions. haha. n i tink matt knew i a bit flustered. so he's v wary n helped me n was like "chilling" me down. hmm. starting to tink whether do i nt haf any leadership skills. coz i can't take pressure sia. as in cannot work under time constraints n wen there's alot of stuff. haha. bt tt's really coz i take pride in my work(: hahaha. yep. bt well. after being in NJ or rather S04 for 2years. i guess i'm really nt interested in being a leader. haha. as in of coz i like to lead n haf an idea n control of wat's gng on. bt perhaps being a follower is more comfortable and suitable? haha. yep.
bt e v sad thing is her wedding is on 12/12. bt i wld be in taiwan!:( oh man. damn sad i can't go. kinda class outing n it's like seeing her get married. tho she isn't like my daughter or anything. bt still wld be cool to see ppl get married. esp she's my teacher. oh man. i mean wld be historic moment? n maybe e last few chances of seeing n interacting w her n e class. so quite sad i can't go. bt taiwan is settled already. so i can't possibly change e dates or anythin. well. i've to accept it ba. jus nt my luck:P haha.
this reminded me tt jovine's supposed to get married this month. shall go check w her how is it gettin on or she's alr married le. haha.
yep. my mum is telling me bout her work again. haiz. i can't empathise w her situation. n honestly. nt v interested to listen to her. yest my sis kinda taught me another lesson. n tt's we wun really be able to feel wat one thinks coz we aren't tt person. coz she was tellin me tt she flares up at ben coz she feels tt she's puttin in alot of effort, sometimes even more than ben. tt's why she always feel quite upset tt ben's nt doin well. den all along i've nv understood tt. coz if it's me, i think i wun flare up coz of my character. bt perhaps i wun feel tt upset too. tt's why there's no "source" of motivation for my upsetness. hehe. similarly, it works for my mum. like i dun feel how she feels. tt's why wen she tells me. i really dun feel anythin. n wat's more serious is during e period wen she was looking for new jobs after being retrenched from NS, i realised she isn't v good at interacting w ppl. n every small little thing others do will be like sth big in her eyes n it's perceived as nt v pleasant. so i've tt impression already. so it's like i wld think tt it might be less of a real issue bt more of her thinking too much.
yep. den tt day wen we visit ah ma, she really talked bout her colleague till v agitated. n i understand her source of unhappiness coz she's really speakin frm e bottom of her heart. so i tried to put myself in her shoes. n on mrt home, somehow i managed to do it. i really felt wat she felt. nt fu-yan-ing her. bt durin weekdays. maybe coz i can't shake off tt perception again. tt's why i really dun like it wen she touches on work this topic. yep. n jus nw wen she's talkin to me. i was jus like half-listening. i mean i was listening. bt my heart wasn't in it.
yep. she's sayin she's v happy tt nxt week she dun haf to work w her fren alr. she finds it stressful to work w this fren. n it's like she's always mentioning e same things. i mean really same things. den to me it's like "again?" i mean same as in exact same stuff. maybe jus a change of wording. nt same topic n den diff happenings. SAME stuff. i mean u can't possibly expect me to react as actively as e way i reacted e first time i hear it. i mean u can expect. bt i can't do it. n i dun expect myself to do it. v sorry. hehe.
yep. n of coz there's this fear of karma! lol.
yep. in e past wen she repeats, to me it's like she doesn't put effort into communication. coz she dun rmb wat she's mentioned b4. n wen she says it again, she still communicates it e way as if it's e first time i'm hearing it. yep. bt nw after tryin to figure out why my dad likes to repeat his words again n again. i guess sometimes e first method ppl put across their words aren't clear enuff, so e 2nd time they change their phrasing a little to bring it across.or they really feel tt it's v impt or they feel strongly. tt's why they repeat. bt oh man. hearing e same old things over n over again really sux.
i guess i aren't tt patient after all. perhaps only to my parents? hehe.
yep. bt after sch had physics mock test. den stayed in sch. at first wanted to play cards. den saw weishun perform magic tricks. den chiahong n me strugglin to understand e trick wen jiaqiang jus see a few times den catch it le. suck la. haha. yep. den went down to play games. bt e few of them jus left w.o chiahong n me. or rather perhaps they thot we didn't wan to play coz we didn't change? bt well. i was really nt interested in frisbee. lol. so chiahong n i sat there talking(at first wen they suddenly disappeared, we were waitin for them to come back first). we talked bout RV's stuff. n my impression of miss ek kinda changed. bt well. it doesn't really matter tt much since i've already left RV. yep.
den after tt walked qimin out of e sch. talked to her a little. den on my way back, saw yitong. den saw miss oon. den played cards w anqi,baby n ling2. i totally behaved like an ah lian w my hokkien n loudness, plus vulgarity n kept blamin anqi wen we lost. haha. i mean jokingly la. haha. it's jus a game. haha. yep. den after tt went for dinner le. at first nt v fun coz long table, den e main conversation was always on e other end, so can't really hear well tho it's like 4 n 3 on each side. bt den after tt went island cremery n heard xinru's love story, which was more of a comedy according to her n after hearin weishun's damn drama's, more of crime watch. hahaha. bt it's really quite freaky. haha. lol. bt really had a good laugh n tt made me nt regret gng for e outing! haha. yep. n i saw melanie there. haha.
yep. n after today's outing, i guess i see e point ba. it's nt tt aq n baby choose to "neglect" zeni n i. perhaps it's jus human nature to wan to be in e "main" conversation. as in it's instinct. everyone(at least i feel) wants to be part of e main conversation. everyone wants to find out bout wat others are talking bout. haha. izzit kiasu-ism tt we dun wan to miss out anything or izzit human nature to wan to be protected n nt wan to be left behind. also dunno. bt even me myself also tended to flinch towards e main conversation. bt at times it depends on who i'm talkin to. if i'm talkin to ppl whom i enjoy talkin to alot. n we are talkin bout substance stuff. i wld choose to jus haf private conversation at e side. haha. ppl like yitong, hargao wen we're talkin bout serious stuff. haha. yep.
bt well. like wat qm n i agreed upon at e bus-stop today. we've all grown up n out of e "emo-ness" of sec sch le ba. esp me. yep. perhaps coz JC frens r nt as impt?(i also dunno whether is this an excuse, or izzit some conclusion made wenever i face some downs or izzit really true) or perhaps i've grown out of e emo to let others noe wat i'm feeling mentality ba. n in a sense. my frens wun sense it n wun care much i guess? haha. yep. n also learning to "protect" myself by tryin to hide myself more. i only wan to open up n tell everythin to ppl whom i wan to. like dun make myself so transparent n tt little bit of mysterious make interacting w me more interesting? haha. yep. like sth to discover everytime:P hehe. yep yep.
bt well. at least still received "farewell presents"/"good luck gifts" from ppl like shamini, dianfeng, tb-mate and yitong!:D haha. yep. v glad tt tb-mate made one extra file for me other than e one he shared w df. n v glad tong got me sth. hehe. feel a little bit bad i didn't get anythin for my sec sch frens. hehe. coz really no time coz i wanted to do for S04 first. in e end e guys didn't get anythin frm me also. coz today i woke up at 515am instead of 4am:P hahaha. yep. n wen tong passed me my gift, i was still doin e class gals' gift. haha. yep. bt for her i guess i wld nv feel ashamed, coz i dui4 de qi tian1 di liang xin for i really treat her as a good buddy. n i've nv forgotten her. it's nt tt time of "oh she got sth for me, i shld get sth for her IN RETURN." hehe. yep. n i always bring her apples and small gifts here n there. haha. n i said i'll get her an extra gift wen i go taiwan le! haha. yep. nt to make up also. bt to show tt she's my v v good fren! haha. yep.
yep. more or less so ba. jus v happy to haf made miss lim e book today. haha. n i'm v happy to receive e gifts,esp frm tb-mate,df and tong! haha. yep.
time's running out. gotta mug hard!! haha. mus really do it this time man! haha.
kheng(:
16/10/09
RV's one made us miss e school so much. cried. community singing for e last time. n many many more. bt well. perhaps i can only say tt we've grown up? n it's nt always bout all e crying n can't let go stuff ba. bt well. i really think e farewell assembly was not memorable at all. lol.
but well. our class did a very nice black book for miss lim! haha. it's kinda belated happy teachers' day present. hehe. bt as in it's v nice. coz e black book itself was v cool. den e photos made it v colourful. n there's our nice n sweet messages. haha. tho some was a bit nt tt long. bt well. i cannot doubt ppl's sincerity. haha. yep. bt i really think e thing was damn well done. as in v cool n nice lo. haha.
yep. n miss lim sent an email to thank us. haha. i expected it. bt it's really long. n first time i feel miss lim talking to us on a really personal level. like sayin she really enjoy e times w our class. haha. yep. tho i'm really impressed by her efficiency n constant "naggings". bt i always feel tt she's more of jus getting her job done. bt tt email jus now was v touching. haha. yep. n towards e back, can't believe she still put announcements! man! haha. bt she printed an extra copy of entry proof for all of us. really really touched by her gesture.
haha. n i tink coz only matthew n i wrote tt it's a belated teachers' day present for her. so she knew we initiated it. n it's always e 2 of us who're more enthu bout doin such stuff. haha. yep. n she mentioned our names specially in e email.so i v happy!:P haha. yep. n really thankful tt i checked w matthew to buy sth for miss lim. haha. n he gave e suggestion of writing sth for her as a class. wow. damn cool! i really like our effort alot alot!:P hahaha.
yep. bt i missed gatherin w 4a today at e oasis. bt i guess for miss lim n her email jus nw, it's worthwhile(: haha. n e whole farewell assembly, i was busy gettin ppl to write n paste n choose photos. haha. yep.
bt hor, today nid to collect CIP certs from everyone in e class back. n i couldn't rmb e instructions. haha. n i tink matt knew i a bit flustered. so he's v wary n helped me n was like "chilling" me down. hmm. starting to tink whether do i nt haf any leadership skills. coz i can't take pressure sia. as in cannot work under time constraints n wen there's alot of stuff. haha. bt tt's really coz i take pride in my work(: hahaha. yep. bt well. after being in NJ or rather S04 for 2years. i guess i'm really nt interested in being a leader. haha. as in of coz i like to lead n haf an idea n control of wat's gng on. bt perhaps being a follower is more comfortable and suitable? haha. yep.
bt e v sad thing is her wedding is on 12/12. bt i wld be in taiwan!:( oh man. damn sad i can't go. kinda class outing n it's like seeing her get married. tho she isn't like my daughter or anything. bt still wld be cool to see ppl get married. esp she's my teacher. oh man. i mean wld be historic moment? n maybe e last few chances of seeing n interacting w her n e class. so quite sad i can't go. bt taiwan is settled already. so i can't possibly change e dates or anythin. well. i've to accept it ba. jus nt my luck:P haha.
this reminded me tt jovine's supposed to get married this month. shall go check w her how is it gettin on or she's alr married le. haha.
yep. my mum is telling me bout her work again. haiz. i can't empathise w her situation. n honestly. nt v interested to listen to her. yest my sis kinda taught me another lesson. n tt's we wun really be able to feel wat one thinks coz we aren't tt person. coz she was tellin me tt she flares up at ben coz she feels tt she's puttin in alot of effort, sometimes even more than ben. tt's why she always feel quite upset tt ben's nt doin well. den all along i've nv understood tt. coz if it's me, i think i wun flare up coz of my character. bt perhaps i wun feel tt upset too. tt's why there's no "source" of motivation for my upsetness. hehe. similarly, it works for my mum. like i dun feel how she feels. tt's why wen she tells me. i really dun feel anythin. n wat's more serious is during e period wen she was looking for new jobs after being retrenched from NS, i realised she isn't v good at interacting w ppl. n every small little thing others do will be like sth big in her eyes n it's perceived as nt v pleasant. so i've tt impression already. so it's like i wld think tt it might be less of a real issue bt more of her thinking too much.
yep. den tt day wen we visit ah ma, she really talked bout her colleague till v agitated. n i understand her source of unhappiness coz she's really speakin frm e bottom of her heart. so i tried to put myself in her shoes. n on mrt home, somehow i managed to do it. i really felt wat she felt. nt fu-yan-ing her. bt durin weekdays. maybe coz i can't shake off tt perception again. tt's why i really dun like it wen she touches on work this topic. yep. n jus nw wen she's talkin to me. i was jus like half-listening. i mean i was listening. bt my heart wasn't in it.
yep. she's sayin she's v happy tt nxt week she dun haf to work w her fren alr. she finds it stressful to work w this fren. n it's like she's always mentioning e same things. i mean really same things. den to me it's like "again?" i mean same as in exact same stuff. maybe jus a change of wording. nt same topic n den diff happenings. SAME stuff. i mean u can't possibly expect me to react as actively as e way i reacted e first time i hear it. i mean u can expect. bt i can't do it. n i dun expect myself to do it. v sorry. hehe.
yep. n of coz there's this fear of karma! lol.
yep. in e past wen she repeats, to me it's like she doesn't put effort into communication. coz she dun rmb wat she's mentioned b4. n wen she says it again, she still communicates it e way as if it's e first time i'm hearing it. yep. bt nw after tryin to figure out why my dad likes to repeat his words again n again. i guess sometimes e first method ppl put across their words aren't clear enuff, so e 2nd time they change their phrasing a little to bring it across.or they really feel tt it's v impt or they feel strongly. tt's why they repeat. bt oh man. hearing e same old things over n over again really sux.
i guess i aren't tt patient after all. perhaps only to my parents? hehe.
yep. bt after sch had physics mock test. den stayed in sch. at first wanted to play cards. den saw weishun perform magic tricks. den chiahong n me strugglin to understand e trick wen jiaqiang jus see a few times den catch it le. suck la. haha. yep. den went down to play games. bt e few of them jus left w.o chiahong n me. or rather perhaps they thot we didn't wan to play coz we didn't change? bt well. i was really nt interested in frisbee. lol. so chiahong n i sat there talking(at first wen they suddenly disappeared, we were waitin for them to come back first). we talked bout RV's stuff. n my impression of miss ek kinda changed. bt well. it doesn't really matter tt much since i've already left RV. yep.
den after tt walked qimin out of e sch. talked to her a little. den on my way back, saw yitong. den saw miss oon. den played cards w anqi,baby n ling2. i totally behaved like an ah lian w my hokkien n loudness, plus vulgarity n kept blamin anqi wen we lost. haha. i mean jokingly la. haha. it's jus a game. haha. yep. den after tt went for dinner le. at first nt v fun coz long table, den e main conversation was always on e other end, so can't really hear well tho it's like 4 n 3 on each side. bt den after tt went island cremery n heard xinru's love story, which was more of a comedy according to her n after hearin weishun's damn drama's, more of crime watch. hahaha. bt it's really quite freaky. haha. lol. bt really had a good laugh n tt made me nt regret gng for e outing! haha. yep. n i saw melanie there. haha.
yep. n after today's outing, i guess i see e point ba. it's nt tt aq n baby choose to "neglect" zeni n i. perhaps it's jus human nature to wan to be in e "main" conversation. as in it's instinct. everyone(at least i feel) wants to be part of e main conversation. everyone wants to find out bout wat others are talking bout. haha. izzit kiasu-ism tt we dun wan to miss out anything or izzit human nature to wan to be protected n nt wan to be left behind. also dunno. bt even me myself also tended to flinch towards e main conversation. bt at times it depends on who i'm talkin to. if i'm talkin to ppl whom i enjoy talkin to alot. n we are talkin bout substance stuff. i wld choose to jus haf private conversation at e side. haha. ppl like yitong, hargao wen we're talkin bout serious stuff. haha. yep.
bt well. like wat qm n i agreed upon at e bus-stop today. we've all grown up n out of e "emo-ness" of sec sch le ba. esp me. yep. perhaps coz JC frens r nt as impt?(i also dunno whether is this an excuse, or izzit some conclusion made wenever i face some downs or izzit really true) or perhaps i've grown out of e emo to let others noe wat i'm feeling mentality ba. n in a sense. my frens wun sense it n wun care much i guess? haha. yep. n also learning to "protect" myself by tryin to hide myself more. i only wan to open up n tell everythin to ppl whom i wan to. like dun make myself so transparent n tt little bit of mysterious make interacting w me more interesting? haha. yep. like sth to discover everytime:P hehe. yep yep.
bt well. at least still received "farewell presents"/"good luck gifts" from ppl like shamini, dianfeng, tb-mate and yitong!:D haha. yep. v glad tt tb-mate made one extra file for me other than e one he shared w df. n v glad tong got me sth. hehe. feel a little bit bad i didn't get anythin for my sec sch frens. hehe. coz really no time coz i wanted to do for S04 first. in e end e guys didn't get anythin frm me also. coz today i woke up at 515am instead of 4am:P hahaha. yep. n wen tong passed me my gift, i was still doin e class gals' gift. haha. yep. bt for her i guess i wld nv feel ashamed, coz i dui4 de qi tian1 di liang xin for i really treat her as a good buddy. n i've nv forgotten her. it's nt tt time of "oh she got sth for me, i shld get sth for her IN RETURN." hehe. yep. n i always bring her apples and small gifts here n there. haha. n i said i'll get her an extra gift wen i go taiwan le! haha. yep. nt to make up also. bt to show tt she's my v v good fren! haha. yep.
yep. more or less so ba. jus v happy to haf made miss lim e book today. haha. n i'm v happy to receive e gifts,esp frm tb-mate,df and tong! haha. yep.
time's running out. gotta mug hard!! haha. mus really do it this time man! haha.
kheng(:
16/10/09
Monday, October 12, 2009
so touched!
wah. jus watched e 2nd episode of autumn's concerto - xia4 yi1 zhan4 xing4 fu2. man. so touching! i think coz most of e 1st episode details was featured in e wan quan yu le already. so nt e 1st time i watched wen i watched tt episode n thus nt as touched. haha. bt today's episode was!! man. i've to wait for a week b4 e nxt episode! bt well. i noe all these are more or less fiction. or less it wun be tt case in singapore. so i can only watch n be like awed. bt at e end of it, it's merely a story.
haha. bt well. it still provides a great deal of sweetness n it's still v touching!!!:P hahaha. yep. jus dunno y mu chen is tgt w tt guy in e middle of e story. haha. dun like. bt nvm. i tink eventually she n tt ren guang xi wld still be tgt. hehe.
yep. haiz. outright slacker, decided to nt go for SEA again tmr. coz twin nt gng. kinda takin him as an excuse coz if he dun go, i wun go. i mean it's like well, there's still tb-mate and yitong. bt.... yitong i always dun sit w her de. n for tb-mate. today he nt gng for ih also nv tell me n wen i saw him in lt, he didn't seem tt keen wen he heard tt i'm gng tmr as well. well. jus a little worried tt i might be leeching too much. yep. bt again. i used the term "excuses" coz i noe v well tt if i wanted to go, i wld have gone at all expenses. yep. well..
hmm. was still always thinkin of tellin miss chia i got e A for her at the A'levels. bt now a bit dreams dashed. n i noe a very big reason is my own slackness. so it's a bit of shame tt i feel. bt well. i jus think tt i nid teachers' guidance n i'm nt v daring to go ask my 2 hist teachers for consultation. n well. i'm slack. so there's always this mentality tt i noe i dun deserve my A n wun get my A as compared to e ppl ard me who're so much more hardworking. bt well. hmm. i can only say tt i'm nt doing sth tt i shld be proud of. bt well. i'm still willing to "duo4 luo4" like this:P hehe. yep. shall go do gp le. hehe.
kheng(:
12/10/09
haha. bt well. it still provides a great deal of sweetness n it's still v touching!!!:P hahaha. yep. jus dunno y mu chen is tgt w tt guy in e middle of e story. haha. dun like. bt nvm. i tink eventually she n tt ren guang xi wld still be tgt. hehe.
yep. haiz. outright slacker, decided to nt go for SEA again tmr. coz twin nt gng. kinda takin him as an excuse coz if he dun go, i wun go. i mean it's like well, there's still tb-mate and yitong. bt.... yitong i always dun sit w her de. n for tb-mate. today he nt gng for ih also nv tell me n wen i saw him in lt, he didn't seem tt keen wen he heard tt i'm gng tmr as well. well. jus a little worried tt i might be leeching too much. yep. bt again. i used the term "excuses" coz i noe v well tt if i wanted to go, i wld have gone at all expenses. yep. well..
hmm. was still always thinkin of tellin miss chia i got e A for her at the A'levels. bt now a bit dreams dashed. n i noe a very big reason is my own slackness. so it's a bit of shame tt i feel. bt well. i jus think tt i nid teachers' guidance n i'm nt v daring to go ask my 2 hist teachers for consultation. n well. i'm slack. so there's always this mentality tt i noe i dun deserve my A n wun get my A as compared to e ppl ard me who're so much more hardworking. bt well. hmm. i can only say tt i'm nt doing sth tt i shld be proud of. bt well. i'm still willing to "duo4 luo4" like this:P hehe. yep. shall go do gp le. hehe.
kheng(:
12/10/09
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
coincidence!
haha. it's such a coincidence! e new taiwan idol drama - xia yi zhan xing fu tt i wan to watch has e
theme song - wo ai ta(by ding dang). haha. i saw e preview n stuff of e drama on wan quan yu le tt day n e song also came frm wan quan yu le - they were talkin bout e MV pdt-ion process. haha.
as in jus nw wen i saw tt e song was e theme song of the show i felt quite excited. haha. coz both is discovered by me de. as in i liked them n decided to watch/listen to it is nt coz of recommendation by others. haha. rare. haha. so i think it's so cool n so qiao! haha.
well. sth interestin. bt today got back hist results. sux man! haha. partly is coz twin got higher than me. it only implies sth: miss oon's expectations of me is lower. well. wat can i say. i've nt been performing or improving frm last year till like common test this year, n nt even prelims this time. well. den also coz everyone did very well, relatively. den i started to think tt i'm really v lousy n i really nid to buck up. bt e whole 20plus mins i was upset i totally neglected e point that i expected it wen i was studyin for e test.
but i also do n will rmb tt sucky feeling coz i think i shldn't always say coz no time, so i shld aim low. n tho i'm already aimin for a B for A's for hist, it's coz i think i'm really nt tt great n aimin for an A wld mean aim for Aplus as miss oon put it, n i noe tt wld make me very stress. but of coz i noe tt only w expectations, den i'll push myself n see where i really can hit. so in a sense i'm aiming for an "A" that would probably warrant me a B, as miss oon analysed e bell-curve thing. yep.
n so far, after moderation for econs n in fact all other subjects, i wld have gotten 3 Cs already. maths prob A or B(if any lower i wld be devastated man! haha) n hopefully GP can get me a C. den my grades wun be tt bad. haha. yep. bt econs quite disappointin too. partly coz we got back case study first. n for e micro case study, i got 21, which is like damn high!:P haha. i mean for myself la, nv gotten an A b4. hehee. yep. bt essay was total disaster. 16, 11 n 9. 9 tt one for e 15marks qn, i only wrote 1 page n 3marks is already like quite gd?:P haha. yep. bt i kinda forgot bout my 1page response n still quite hopeful to gettin like good grades for econs sia. haha. bt well. at least still a D tt will go to a C after moderation.
but i still rmb wat jie said:
If u wan an A, be of A standard and go get ur A n not pray hard tt others do badly to push u up.
yep. i rmb this. n since i'm setting a 3As and 2Bs aim for A'levels, i will make sure i'm of that calibre by then(hopefully it's nt all talk n no action:P) haha. n for hist, special case, prepared to get a B but hopefully can hit an A for raw score. haha. yep.
yep yep. n i'll also rmb wat i said to anqi jus nw:
given that the range of B is so big and NJ is a top-tier school, getting a B with the help of the bell curve isn't even an aim, it's more or less a given(provided you don't screw up).
my meaning is nt to haolian. bt rather to recognise the fact that gettin a B isn't anythin impressive, in fact it shld be expected ba. so i shalln't settle for a B.
haha. yep. n like wat xinru said(which i already realised n understood the reasoning):
cannot aim for a B coz scared that if put in effort for an A and dun get it in e end.
yep. n i hope i'll practise wat i preach n put in effort for A's! it's in a month's time! time really flies! n it's so near!! hahaha. yep. jiayou eh!
1404(:
06-10-09
theme song - wo ai ta(by ding dang). haha. i saw e preview n stuff of e drama on wan quan yu le tt day n e song also came frm wan quan yu le - they were talkin bout e MV pdt-ion process. haha.
as in jus nw wen i saw tt e song was e theme song of the show i felt quite excited. haha. coz both is discovered by me de. as in i liked them n decided to watch/listen to it is nt coz of recommendation by others. haha. rare. haha. so i think it's so cool n so qiao! haha.
well. sth interestin. bt today got back hist results. sux man! haha. partly is coz twin got higher than me. it only implies sth: miss oon's expectations of me is lower. well. wat can i say. i've nt been performing or improving frm last year till like common test this year, n nt even prelims this time. well. den also coz everyone did very well, relatively. den i started to think tt i'm really v lousy n i really nid to buck up. bt e whole 20plus mins i was upset i totally neglected e point that i expected it wen i was studyin for e test.
but i also do n will rmb tt sucky feeling coz i think i shldn't always say coz no time, so i shld aim low. n tho i'm already aimin for a B for A's for hist, it's coz i think i'm really nt tt great n aimin for an A wld mean aim for Aplus as miss oon put it, n i noe tt wld make me very stress. but of coz i noe tt only w expectations, den i'll push myself n see where i really can hit. so in a sense i'm aiming for an "A" that would probably warrant me a B, as miss oon analysed e bell-curve thing. yep.
n so far, after moderation for econs n in fact all other subjects, i wld have gotten 3 Cs already. maths prob A or B(if any lower i wld be devastated man! haha) n hopefully GP can get me a C. den my grades wun be tt bad. haha. yep. bt econs quite disappointin too. partly coz we got back case study first. n for e micro case study, i got 21, which is like damn high!:P haha. i mean for myself la, nv gotten an A b4. hehee. yep. bt essay was total disaster. 16, 11 n 9. 9 tt one for e 15marks qn, i only wrote 1 page n 3marks is already like quite gd?:P haha. yep. bt i kinda forgot bout my 1page response n still quite hopeful to gettin like good grades for econs sia. haha. bt well. at least still a D tt will go to a C after moderation.
but i still rmb wat jie said:
If u wan an A, be of A standard and go get ur A n not pray hard tt others do badly to push u up.
yep. i rmb this. n since i'm setting a 3As and 2Bs aim for A'levels, i will make sure i'm of that calibre by then(hopefully it's nt all talk n no action:P) haha. n for hist, special case, prepared to get a B but hopefully can hit an A for raw score. haha. yep.
yep yep. n i'll also rmb wat i said to anqi jus nw:
given that the range of B is so big and NJ is a top-tier school, getting a B with the help of the bell curve isn't even an aim, it's more or less a given(provided you don't screw up).
my meaning is nt to haolian. bt rather to recognise the fact that gettin a B isn't anythin impressive, in fact it shld be expected ba. so i shalln't settle for a B.
haha. yep. n like wat xinru said(which i already realised n understood the reasoning):
cannot aim for a B coz scared that if put in effort for an A and dun get it in e end.
yep. n i hope i'll practise wat i preach n put in effort for A's! it's in a month's time! time really flies! n it's so near!! hahaha. yep. jiayou eh!
1404(:
06-10-09
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