man. why happen sth like this again? n it's a stupid sun night again. i really quite scared of such things. after tt sure will cold war for a period of time. hopefully it wun be long la. i really dun wan to see hostility man.. please bless!
kheng:S
21/02/2010
status: really awkward feeling now man....
Sunday, February 21, 2010
changed my blog add(:
hehe. jus felt like changin my blog add to sth related to xia yi zhan xing fu. after all e craze for it was really really strong for the past 2months. hehe. yep. to be exact, only the january month especially. hehe. yep. n today last ep le. if i dun change, maybe i would nv change to it le coz it's gng to end today. yep. n tho i've no idea wat to change it to initially, i still changed it eventually. haha. yep. change again nxt time ba. anw i dun need to give my blog add to anyone, so no issue wat i change it to. as long as it remains as like a landmark in my memories for future references:P hehe. yep.
kheng(:
21/02/2010
status: -NIL-
kheng(:
21/02/2010
status: -NIL-
man. 21st feb TWO O ONE O.
man. today's 21st feb. it's bearbear's b-dae. hahaha. jus nw went to his facebook page to look at photos. man. feels so distant. haha. e one whom i was crazy like mad for in the past! hahaha. bt well. it still feels sweet to recall back the past n haf the memories. hehe. bt really is like so so so distant. he seems non-existent in my world n i guess i only really recalled how he looks like wen i saw e photos jus nw. nt tt i couldn't rmb bt i've nt gone to recall it for the past year or maybe even longer. haha. yep.
haha. anw tonight's gng to be xia yi zhan xing fu's last ep. e past few weeks' de wan yu's features of the show i all nv watch. coz i wanna wait for a day wen i'm free, totally relaxed n comfortable before i watch n allow myself to totally sink in. hehe. tt's how i treat good things!:D hehe. or maybe it's coz it's nt that impt to me nw till i can't wait to watch it tt's why i'm willing to hold it on. hehe. yep.
anw wen i watched ep 19 was quite disappointed coz i thot by the pool side there, mu chen n guang xi will be together like finally. bt oh man, there's misunderstanding like AGAIN n i was jus totally. man why izzit happening again. den i felt the clique-ness n was a bit upset. coz it brings down the standard of the show. n felt a little yuan1 wang for mu chen n can't understand why was guang xi feelin tt way. hmm. yep.
n at first wanted to postpone e watchin of the last ep de. coz it's like this week gng be busy like mad. 2 tuitions. evaluation n practices for driving.. den sat got gift sun playin bmt. equals to i've to give up one in order to go for the mustafa trip w victor n lujie for YLC. hmm. yep. tmr prac. tues baby's bro's tuition. one night shift. one more tuition. equals to i've no more night time left for myself. lol. bt den i realised tt i could watch it tmr morn b4 gng to work since it's reporting to TP HQ at 9am. hehehe. yep. n tt decision came after my bro was watchin it w shulin in the room as i lazed around n tried to slp some more.
originally didn't wan to watch coz no time coz it would be uploaded late night n tmr morn i would be tired if i slp late 2night n i would suffer for the whole week. den plus i didn't haf tt excitement of wanting to watch. bt after listening as my bro they all watched, i thot of the preview n all the excitement came back! coz guang xi n mu chen are gng to be tgt! hahaha. if they end up nt tgt, i really will curse n swear like mad. bt i dun think so rite? yep. hopefully i wun be disappointed la.
hehe. yep. bt anw hearing the sounds coming out frm e show as my bro watched, i really found back all the gan dong. coz CNY so they break showing 1 ep, which is also the last ep. plus i ta han for a week b4 i watched ep 18 tgt w 19. so there wasn't e watch it at a go momentum like ep 3-14 nor the weekly faithfulness of gng back to watch it like ep 15-17. hehe. yep. plus ep 19's misunderstandin kinda disappointed me. yep.so lost e passion for it. or maybe coz haf things to do le. like tuition n work. so no time to hu si1 luan4 xiang there. haha. yep. bt anw this show will forever remain beautiful n sweet in my heart. e beauty that e director was pursuing as she filmed e show. n she succeeded. coz tt beauty is remaining in my heart coz of the sweetness tat it brought out. haha. yep.
yest really lost a bit of directions. coz CNY tho was fun, totally didn't felt like CNY. coz bot all my clothes at bugis n coz of the cheap so buy cheap so buy feel, felt like i was behavin in taiwan. totally no feel of buyin it for CNY. den eve still had to work. den got pay le so not much anticipation for the angbao money also. so everything add tgt = no excitement/anticipation n no feel n no realisation even after it was over. lol. yep la. den coz of work, less time at home. no time for frens. so it's like lost my pillars of support. or rather lost touch. den b4 tt wat was holding me up was xia yi zhan xing fu. wen i've no time to dream bout it n find strength frm it, of coz would feel tired. yep. bt of coz tt meant tt i had no time to feel upset bout it ending n stuff also:P hehe. yep.
yep. tt's why was so upset last night. n can't believe my tears rolled down non-stop as i lay in my bed. for close to 30mins i tink? haha. i guess i took bout 40-50mins b4 i fell asleep frm the moment i laid down? haha. yep. bt anw i aren't tt upset anymore. n still happy tt my bro organised the gathering yest. coz was like a get-together. n i jus love this feelin of being tgt w my extended family. n i mean only those who came yest plus ade n my 4th aunt. haha. nt tt i hate the rest bt nt as close to them. n for the past few years, had so many special events w them, like christmas celebrations, CNY count-down, sentosa trip n of coz TAIWAN trip! hehe. feel so close n of coz glad for that additional gathering yest(: hehe. yep. i take back all my hurtful comments n words over the washing up yest!:S hehe. yep. tho my comments were all for myself sia. i mean only blogged n den complained to myself as i cried yest on bed la. yep. thank goodness i didn't throw it into anyone's face. hehe. yep.
haha. is this some kind of fate that xia yi zhan xing fu's last ep is showed today? haha. well. dunno. let's see. hehe.
haha. haf a feeling i wun find a boyfriend. nt tt i'm despo n i would go ard scaring ppl or grab anyone. bt well. i really feel like havin a boyfriend bt i've a feeling i wun find one. bt well. dunno. see first. haha.
kheng(:
21/02/2010
status: peaceful heart n mind(:
haha. anw tonight's gng to be xia yi zhan xing fu's last ep. e past few weeks' de wan yu's features of the show i all nv watch. coz i wanna wait for a day wen i'm free, totally relaxed n comfortable before i watch n allow myself to totally sink in. hehe. tt's how i treat good things!:D hehe. or maybe it's coz it's nt that impt to me nw till i can't wait to watch it tt's why i'm willing to hold it on. hehe. yep.
anw wen i watched ep 19 was quite disappointed coz i thot by the pool side there, mu chen n guang xi will be together like finally. bt oh man, there's misunderstanding like AGAIN n i was jus totally. man why izzit happening again. den i felt the clique-ness n was a bit upset. coz it brings down the standard of the show. n felt a little yuan1 wang for mu chen n can't understand why was guang xi feelin tt way. hmm. yep.
n at first wanted to postpone e watchin of the last ep de. coz it's like this week gng be busy like mad. 2 tuitions. evaluation n practices for driving.. den sat got gift sun playin bmt. equals to i've to give up one in order to go for the mustafa trip w victor n lujie for YLC. hmm. yep. tmr prac. tues baby's bro's tuition. one night shift. one more tuition. equals to i've no more night time left for myself. lol. bt den i realised tt i could watch it tmr morn b4 gng to work since it's reporting to TP HQ at 9am. hehehe. yep. n tt decision came after my bro was watchin it w shulin in the room as i lazed around n tried to slp some more.
originally didn't wan to watch coz no time coz it would be uploaded late night n tmr morn i would be tired if i slp late 2night n i would suffer for the whole week. den plus i didn't haf tt excitement of wanting to watch. bt after listening as my bro they all watched, i thot of the preview n all the excitement came back! coz guang xi n mu chen are gng to be tgt! hahaha. if they end up nt tgt, i really will curse n swear like mad. bt i dun think so rite? yep. hopefully i wun be disappointed la.
hehe. yep. bt anw hearing the sounds coming out frm e show as my bro watched, i really found back all the gan dong. coz CNY so they break showing 1 ep, which is also the last ep. plus i ta han for a week b4 i watched ep 18 tgt w 19. so there wasn't e watch it at a go momentum like ep 3-14 nor the weekly faithfulness of gng back to watch it like ep 15-17. hehe. yep. plus ep 19's misunderstandin kinda disappointed me. yep.so lost e passion for it. or maybe coz haf things to do le. like tuition n work. so no time to hu si1 luan4 xiang there. haha. yep. bt anw this show will forever remain beautiful n sweet in my heart. e beauty that e director was pursuing as she filmed e show. n she succeeded. coz tt beauty is remaining in my heart coz of the sweetness tat it brought out. haha. yep.
yest really lost a bit of directions. coz CNY tho was fun, totally didn't felt like CNY. coz bot all my clothes at bugis n coz of the cheap so buy cheap so buy feel, felt like i was behavin in taiwan. totally no feel of buyin it for CNY. den eve still had to work. den got pay le so not much anticipation for the angbao money also. so everything add tgt = no excitement/anticipation n no feel n no realisation even after it was over. lol. yep la. den coz of work, less time at home. no time for frens. so it's like lost my pillars of support. or rather lost touch. den b4 tt wat was holding me up was xia yi zhan xing fu. wen i've no time to dream bout it n find strength frm it, of coz would feel tired. yep. bt of coz tt meant tt i had no time to feel upset bout it ending n stuff also:P hehe. yep.
yep. tt's why was so upset last night. n can't believe my tears rolled down non-stop as i lay in my bed. for close to 30mins i tink? haha. i guess i took bout 40-50mins b4 i fell asleep frm the moment i laid down? haha. yep. bt anw i aren't tt upset anymore. n still happy tt my bro organised the gathering yest. coz was like a get-together. n i jus love this feelin of being tgt w my extended family. n i mean only those who came yest plus ade n my 4th aunt. haha. nt tt i hate the rest bt nt as close to them. n for the past few years, had so many special events w them, like christmas celebrations, CNY count-down, sentosa trip n of coz TAIWAN trip! hehe. feel so close n of coz glad for that additional gathering yest(: hehe. yep. i take back all my hurtful comments n words over the washing up yest!:S hehe. yep. tho my comments were all for myself sia. i mean only blogged n den complained to myself as i cried yest on bed la. yep. thank goodness i didn't throw it into anyone's face. hehe. yep.
haha. is this some kind of fate that xia yi zhan xing fu's last ep is showed today? haha. well. dunno. let's see. hehe.
haha. haf a feeling i wun find a boyfriend. nt tt i'm despo n i would go ard scaring ppl or grab anyone. bt well. i really feel like havin a boyfriend bt i've a feeling i wun find one. bt well. dunno. see first. haha.
kheng(:
21/02/2010
status: peaceful heart n mind(:
Saturday, February 20, 2010
title-less
oh man. really freak long nv blog le. i mean compared to the almost everyday bloggin of xia yi zhan xing fu last month:P hehe. job's really making me crazy. e scheduling plus tuition n the need to prep for it. man. bt coz of CNY plus enuff staff now.so i've like more free time coz i'm given the last priority wen e schedule is planned. hmm.. bt well it's ok, not easy to find a simple n yet challenging job(tho it's nt as challenging as i started out with) job w nice colleagues n boss. hehe. yep.
really freak out by the stories of the security guards. bt well. there're jus certain ppl whom my trust shld not be shaken n i hope my trust would not be misplaced. bt there're jus ppl whom i'll be more careful with coz i dun wan the wrong message to be sent n regret only wen things happen. hehe. yep. man. is my english getting poorer by the day? mus really continue to maintain my own standard. i dun wan to like sound retarded wen i open my mouth. heh. yep. no offence/insult meant.
yep. anw happy!:D hehe. coz baby's mum got me another tutee. hehe. starting nxt week i tink. den i can get like additional $160 from the tuition over there. hopefully sec 1 wouldn't be as tough. n i'm getting rather pleased w teaching baby's brother. i tink i do see improvement in SSH coz he really started off WEAK. hehe. yep. i hope i can meet my target of havin him get an A2 for SSH n A1 for maths(: hehe. jiayou ba! i still haf bout 8months to work on it(: hehe.
yep. bt well. today is really not a very good day. was at YLC discussion happily wen i got a call n jus kena da xiao sheng1 at. i realised everytime it's coz i'm unsure. tt's why i kena arrowed(man. i can't even spell arrow!) yep. if i'm sure, i would haf been able to tell her it wasn't me CONFIDENTLY. n i guess it makes all the difference. n wen i'm unsure, n she's sure it wasn't her. it becomes my fault. yep. bt well. at least i had a good match today. tink jie fu's getting his standard back(: i'm so happy. tink my 4years in badminton really not wasted. i really tink my instinct for receiving smashes is there:D hehe.yep. n i did quite a no of nice dropshots today!:D hehe. yep.
there's once wen i really vented all my anger through the smash. bt after that i thot that as a professional player, even if i dun play on the international stage, i should still haf sportsmanship n not use the sport to like vent my anger. n i did control!(: hehe. so great!(: hehe.yep.
n standard, wen we got onto the car. she started saying already. thank goodness the 2hours on bmt served as the buffer period n there's still dajie, jie fu n mich around. so i tink she more or less gave me some face. bt yep. i'm really sick of all these sudden tantrums. esp those wen u receive calls or jus some F***** up sms-es. i really got very very pissed wen i saw that sms jus now. if not for the fact that lujie was there n i didn't wan to embarrass myself in public n in front of a fren, that is not buddy like tong, i would haf either got real MAD or jus cried. bt well. at least i didn't.
n wen i first met da jie n she asked if i took it. i really got damn angry. tt "ta ma de" came out coz of the fire within me. nt coz i wanted to scold. if not for the fact that i dun haf that habit of scolding vulgarities, wat came out would haf been "CB" or "F", n nt "TMD". yep. n i rmb my brother's saying of not badmouthing own siblings in front of others, even family members that are not immediate to u, n i feel tat it's really sad to hear such things coming out of my cousin's mouth, that's why i stopped myself n didn't continue. i'm nt sayin that i'm noble. i'm jus tryin to say that i controlled.
yep. does being younger really subject u to such treatment. actually e ans is yes. bt is it true that i should accept all these? does it mean that there's no way i can retaliate? i dun mean fight back, i only wan to protect my own interest. really v sick. now i've money already, i dun haf to zuo niu zuo ma already. i'm nt sayin haf money big. i'm jus tryin to say tt i'm using heart to treat ppl. why can't ppl jiang1 xin1 bi xin1? maybe they do. jus in diff ways. or like wat my sis always say, "you look at my face, u tink i care?"
jus nw i really got v upset. why didn't er jie come n help? why didn't kong long come n pei me? i guess it's nt fair to expect er jie to help coz she always help. can't take for granted. i aren't sayin tt she's at fault. i was jus a little upset. my brother wanted the liveliness. bt ended up my mum did all the menial work. maybe coz my mum kept snatchin to do it? it might be true, it might not be. did my bro say thanks? no. wat did he say last week? he said eat zhu cao, eat already jus leave. ended up? steamboat? who did the work? my mum. i helped my mum not for those praises. nt to lick my mum's boots. or anythin. it's jus tt i dun tink it's fair for my mum. sometimes really cannot blame her for being so closed up. coz it's like if she open, be da fang, wat does she get? endless work? bt again, i can't totally empathise w her coz i still tink tt there're still things tat she dun haf to be so persistent in, like washing clothes manually. yep.
n i didn't feel v happy bout this gathering too. i feel tt my siblings dun take care of me as much as they take care of my cousins or as much as my cousins take care of me. jus thru a simple steamboat. maybe it's jus nature ba, to wan to care more bout ur more distant relatives, as compared to the siblings that u see everyday.
the eating together. after a while, they also left to watch the tv. i was only v happy to see er jie n bihong jiejie coz i hardly see them. n tt time after e 2nd day of CNY, was thinkin wen will i c er jie again. n yeah, i saw her today. yep. maybe i shld say tt i would still like such gathering, jus tt w.o e need to clear up like mad part(not jus for me, also for my mum).
haiz. bt really v upset. v sian. bt it's okay! later go for a sleep. tmr haf a FULL FREE DAY at home! can farm n farm n farm. do YLC. study for BTT. prepare for tuition. so tt i can haf a happier week ahead(: n things are really cramming up. i still wan to go gift. still wan to play bmt...... so better haf better management of my time(: n enjoy my day at home tomorrow:D hehe. yep.
anw so happy to be at symbiosis yest!:D hehe. jus tt the hiccup over the mishandling of IC really got me a bit down. hehe. saw my cute guy! bt oh man, he smokes!:S really was like heaven to hell kind of disappointment wen i saw him outside south tower there n seemingly did the smoking action:( so sad. hehe. anw. tmr's bearbear's b-dae. did i sms him last year? tink no need to sms him le la. jus suan4 le. lol. did i even tell him my hp no changed? haha.
yep yep. cheer up kheng(: wondering how tong's doing. hopefully she'll be able to continue to stay strong!(: she cannot fall, coz she's my greatest pillar of support. hehe. even if tt's nt the case, as a fren, i also dun wan to see her fall. n i believe she shld still be able to do it. n hopefully she'll rmb before she falls, tt there's always me around for her, jus like she has been for me. ALWAYS. excluding the times last year wen i felt tt our friendship was losing that solid feel. bt yep. before i get my BF(which i hope i will), i'll find strength from this BFF(BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!) n i mean it. hopefully before i end my last breathe, tong can still remain as my BFF(: hehe.
yep. JIAYOU tong!(:
kheng(:
20/02/2010
status: feel happier now(:
really freak out by the stories of the security guards. bt well. there're jus certain ppl whom my trust shld not be shaken n i hope my trust would not be misplaced. bt there're jus ppl whom i'll be more careful with coz i dun wan the wrong message to be sent n regret only wen things happen. hehe. yep. man. is my english getting poorer by the day? mus really continue to maintain my own standard. i dun wan to like sound retarded wen i open my mouth. heh. yep. no offence/insult meant.
yep. anw happy!:D hehe. coz baby's mum got me another tutee. hehe. starting nxt week i tink. den i can get like additional $160 from the tuition over there. hopefully sec 1 wouldn't be as tough. n i'm getting rather pleased w teaching baby's brother. i tink i do see improvement in SSH coz he really started off WEAK. hehe. yep. i hope i can meet my target of havin him get an A2 for SSH n A1 for maths(: hehe. jiayou ba! i still haf bout 8months to work on it(: hehe.
yep. bt well. today is really not a very good day. was at YLC discussion happily wen i got a call n jus kena da xiao sheng1 at. i realised everytime it's coz i'm unsure. tt's why i kena arrowed(man. i can't even spell arrow!) yep. if i'm sure, i would haf been able to tell her it wasn't me CONFIDENTLY. n i guess it makes all the difference. n wen i'm unsure, n she's sure it wasn't her. it becomes my fault. yep. bt well. at least i had a good match today. tink jie fu's getting his standard back(: i'm so happy. tink my 4years in badminton really not wasted. i really tink my instinct for receiving smashes is there:D hehe.yep. n i did quite a no of nice dropshots today!:D hehe. yep.
there's once wen i really vented all my anger through the smash. bt after that i thot that as a professional player, even if i dun play on the international stage, i should still haf sportsmanship n not use the sport to like vent my anger. n i did control!(: hehe. so great!(: hehe.yep.
n standard, wen we got onto the car. she started saying already. thank goodness the 2hours on bmt served as the buffer period n there's still dajie, jie fu n mich around. so i tink she more or less gave me some face. bt yep. i'm really sick of all these sudden tantrums. esp those wen u receive calls or jus some F***** up sms-es. i really got very very pissed wen i saw that sms jus now. if not for the fact that lujie was there n i didn't wan to embarrass myself in public n in front of a fren, that is not buddy like tong, i would haf either got real MAD or jus cried. bt well. at least i didn't.
n wen i first met da jie n she asked if i took it. i really got damn angry. tt "ta ma de" came out coz of the fire within me. nt coz i wanted to scold. if not for the fact that i dun haf that habit of scolding vulgarities, wat came out would haf been "CB" or "F", n nt "TMD". yep. n i rmb my brother's saying of not badmouthing own siblings in front of others, even family members that are not immediate to u, n i feel tat it's really sad to hear such things coming out of my cousin's mouth, that's why i stopped myself n didn't continue. i'm nt sayin that i'm noble. i'm jus tryin to say that i controlled.
yep. does being younger really subject u to such treatment. actually e ans is yes. bt is it true that i should accept all these? does it mean that there's no way i can retaliate? i dun mean fight back, i only wan to protect my own interest. really v sick. now i've money already, i dun haf to zuo niu zuo ma already. i'm nt sayin haf money big. i'm jus tryin to say tt i'm using heart to treat ppl. why can't ppl jiang1 xin1 bi xin1? maybe they do. jus in diff ways. or like wat my sis always say, "you look at my face, u tink i care?"
jus nw i really got v upset. why didn't er jie come n help? why didn't kong long come n pei me? i guess it's nt fair to expect er jie to help coz she always help. can't take for granted. i aren't sayin tt she's at fault. i was jus a little upset. my brother wanted the liveliness. bt ended up my mum did all the menial work. maybe coz my mum kept snatchin to do it? it might be true, it might not be. did my bro say thanks? no. wat did he say last week? he said eat zhu cao, eat already jus leave. ended up? steamboat? who did the work? my mum. i helped my mum not for those praises. nt to lick my mum's boots. or anythin. it's jus tt i dun tink it's fair for my mum. sometimes really cannot blame her for being so closed up. coz it's like if she open, be da fang, wat does she get? endless work? bt again, i can't totally empathise w her coz i still tink tt there're still things tat she dun haf to be so persistent in, like washing clothes manually. yep.
n i didn't feel v happy bout this gathering too. i feel tt my siblings dun take care of me as much as they take care of my cousins or as much as my cousins take care of me. jus thru a simple steamboat. maybe it's jus nature ba, to wan to care more bout ur more distant relatives, as compared to the siblings that u see everyday.
the eating together. after a while, they also left to watch the tv. i was only v happy to see er jie n bihong jiejie coz i hardly see them. n tt time after e 2nd day of CNY, was thinkin wen will i c er jie again. n yeah, i saw her today. yep. maybe i shld say tt i would still like such gathering, jus tt w.o e need to clear up like mad part(not jus for me, also for my mum).
haiz. bt really v upset. v sian. bt it's okay! later go for a sleep. tmr haf a FULL FREE DAY at home! can farm n farm n farm. do YLC. study for BTT. prepare for tuition. so tt i can haf a happier week ahead(: n things are really cramming up. i still wan to go gift. still wan to play bmt...... so better haf better management of my time(: n enjoy my day at home tomorrow:D hehe. yep.
anw so happy to be at symbiosis yest!:D hehe. jus tt the hiccup over the mishandling of IC really got me a bit down. hehe. saw my cute guy! bt oh man, he smokes!:S really was like heaven to hell kind of disappointment wen i saw him outside south tower there n seemingly did the smoking action:( so sad. hehe. anw. tmr's bearbear's b-dae. did i sms him last year? tink no need to sms him le la. jus suan4 le. lol. did i even tell him my hp no changed? haha.
yep yep. cheer up kheng(: wondering how tong's doing. hopefully she'll be able to continue to stay strong!(: she cannot fall, coz she's my greatest pillar of support. hehe. even if tt's nt the case, as a fren, i also dun wan to see her fall. n i believe she shld still be able to do it. n hopefully she'll rmb before she falls, tt there's always me around for her, jus like she has been for me. ALWAYS. excluding the times last year wen i felt tt our friendship was losing that solid feel. bt yep. before i get my BF(which i hope i will), i'll find strength from this BFF(BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!) n i mean it. hopefully before i end my last breathe, tong can still remain as my BFF(: hehe.
yep. JIAYOU tong!(:
kheng(:
20/02/2010
status: feel happier now(:
Sunday, February 7, 2010
missing..
oh man. memories flooding back after looking at the taiwan photos! esp e photo w e hua lien uncle! man. after tt taking e tai tie3 back to taipei... man.. i miss taiwan!!
kheng:'(
08/02/10
kheng:'(
08/02/10
Monday, February 1, 2010
oh man. am i serious?
man. it's nt tt i wan to be mean to my mum. bt it's jus like i already said "anythin". actually i anyhow pick or she anyhow choose is no diff de. bt i jus insisted on not choosing coz i wan her to noe tt really is anything, if nt she wun take wat i say seriously. i dun mean to say tt she owes me or anything. bt is "anything" that hard to understand? she dun wan to process it den keep asking n asking den isn't it like asking for me to like flare up? man. really dunno wat's gng thru in her mind.
haiz. i tink i'm getting a little bit stressed ba. hmm. everyday 8-6, only thurs 8-5. bt got tuition. so it's like everyday also so busy. only thing is tt this weekend no work. bt got other stuff to do n settle of coz. yest wanted to come blog de, coz i thot of everyday like tt den plus tmr's driving theory lesson n thurs's tuition, i really felt tt damn packed. n i needed sleep. so i gave up watching xia yi zhan xing fu even. jus nw actually had time, bt was watching 55's dramas, so i didn't watch. anw i didn't plan to watch.
yep. didn't wan to watch nt coz i can't afford tt 1h 10mins. bt it's like watch le will haf repercussions de. it's like i'll keep thinking bout it n stuff. n can't believe it,yest's nt e last ep! all signs haf been telling me it's e last. e show's fast pace = it wun drag nw tt things haf been resolved, SCV's 30ep which should = sugoideas's 18 ep n last week's preview! n i still so confidently bet with yingjie n try to convince her tt it's 18ep. luckily bet was only macflurry. if nt die to the die die.
man. bt nw still a bit malu. i a bit sad lo. die-hard fan leh! why was my analysis wrong? hmmm. yep. n talk so loudly tt time during 4a class outing, den in e end wrong!:S haha. bt at least mama king n yingjie aren't ppl who would mock at me. haha. so, okay.. hehe.
yep yep. bt it's like i actually can ta-han not watching.. i guess life's gettin a bit intense for me ba. judgin from e way i talked to my bro jus nw. hmm. n nobody to talk to. as in nobody in mind. thot of tong, n msg-ed her le. bt i guess she's busy at work ba. so gotta wait for her to reply. bt even if she replies, can only sms. can't really talk too. hmm.
yep. i tink partly coz yingjie watch le. i swear i didn't watch at 1am plus last week to watch before her nor did i purposely sms her 2weeks ago to show off. i really wanted to jus share. bt nw coz she already watched le. like nth propelling me to watch. rather than sayin tt it's e fact tt she's watched, so i dun feel e sense of urgency to watch. i shld say tt she doesn't seem tt enthu to continue discussion bout e show w me over phone, so i dun feel e urgency to watch to like crap w her also ba.
yep. bt judging frm her reaction wen i told her yest's las ep, she mus be some die-hard fan too. jus tt she didn't appear to be so that day wen i saw her after gift meeting n wen i was gng S04's BBQ. n like on sms-es, she doesn't seem that high too. so i didn't wan to like go "bother" her. i can high on my own de. tho tt's quite sad. n having someone "rallyin" tgt w u. really is better. bt if she isn't really that high, den i dun wan to be like a mosquito like that, non-stop bug her! haha. yep.
anw jie jus on tv, n i see wan yu. man. supposed to watch mu4 hou4 hua1 xu4 de lo. bt i dun wan to watch also. coz i wan to go slp n haf enough energy to last till friday! haha. actually nt tt hectic la nw tt i tink of it. jus tt a bit scared coz tmr gotta go driving theory lesson alone. so i tink i freak out le. haha. yep. i alr nt afraid of helpdesk le. coz i tink raihanah tinks i quite weak at tt. so i dun haf expectations to meet. n wen ppl tink i CMI, den i dun haf to stress myself. yep. i wun try v hard to prove ppl wrong de. tho i shld coz this is my job n she's like my boss. bt i dun really care v much bout this job tho i tink it's quite ok.. yep.
anw yep. i didn't watch mu hou4 hua1 xu4 also. haha. maybe scared of hou4 yi zhen4 also ba. hmm. i was worried suddenly, am i like no longer having that passion for the show?:P haha. bt given my behaviour durin 4a's outing that day, i dun tink it's no longer my interest:P hehe. yep. n i still am very excited at the thot of possibly havin the xia yi zhan xing fu DVD on my b-dae. so i tink i'm still IN the show!:P hehe.
HAIZ! stupid comp crashed! so i dunno where i stopped!
yep. talking bout hou4 yi zheng4. was sayin totally not prepared bout the "reducing waiting time" by watching the latest ep as late as possible.. coz i really believed that yest's ep was e last ep! haha. bt as i told yj, nt last ep i happy n sad at the same time. sad coz i lost the bet. i really tink quite malu:P hehe. happy of coz coz the show hasn't ended. i'll haf more eps to see! hehe. yay!:D hehe. bt yep. maintain quality pls! as a die hard fan, i really dun wan to see it end shittily.
heh. yep. tong replied le. hehe.
yep yep. guess e ulcer at my gum there is making me heaty? i really quite easily "irritated" now. like jus nw was explainin my analysis at the episodes splittin of xia yi zhan xing fu on SCV n on sugoideas to my sis, i also no patience. wen my bro talked to me, i also dun feel like entertaining him. haiz. i tink i shld go slp now. b4 i quarrel w anyone or piss anyone off. or haf my tears roll down out of frustration.
yep. bt anw my entry title came coz i can't believe tt i actually can wait n nt watch xia yi zhan xing fu. n it's nt like i'm tryin v hard to control, i actually feel quite peaceful n nt very excited to watch it. tt's why i was afraid tt i would lose interest in the show. would be quite sad for me coz it's like tt kind of anticipation, love, craze and fanatism for sth/a show, tt kind of feeling is actually quite fun n maybe "sweet"(coz of the love in the show).. yep. n i'm quite afraid of losing such craze coz it would mean tt i've like lost a source of liveliness n energy like tt.
hmm. bt anw, i tink i still love the show la. maybe coz work stressing me out. maybe ulcer giving me prob. or maybe today's jus a "bad hair day" ba. yep.
kk. go slp.
kheng
02/01/2010
2259h
status: i love xia yi zhan xing fu!(simple bt contains a lot of meaning in it!(:)
haiz. i tink i'm getting a little bit stressed ba. hmm. everyday 8-6, only thurs 8-5. bt got tuition. so it's like everyday also so busy. only thing is tt this weekend no work. bt got other stuff to do n settle of coz. yest wanted to come blog de, coz i thot of everyday like tt den plus tmr's driving theory lesson n thurs's tuition, i really felt tt damn packed. n i needed sleep. so i gave up watching xia yi zhan xing fu even. jus nw actually had time, bt was watching 55's dramas, so i didn't watch. anw i didn't plan to watch.
yep. didn't wan to watch nt coz i can't afford tt 1h 10mins. bt it's like watch le will haf repercussions de. it's like i'll keep thinking bout it n stuff. n can't believe it,yest's nt e last ep! all signs haf been telling me it's e last. e show's fast pace = it wun drag nw tt things haf been resolved, SCV's 30ep which should = sugoideas's 18 ep n last week's preview! n i still so confidently bet with yingjie n try to convince her tt it's 18ep. luckily bet was only macflurry. if nt die to the die die.
man. bt nw still a bit malu. i a bit sad lo. die-hard fan leh! why was my analysis wrong? hmmm. yep. n talk so loudly tt time during 4a class outing, den in e end wrong!:S haha. bt at least mama king n yingjie aren't ppl who would mock at me. haha. so, okay.. hehe.
yep yep. bt it's like i actually can ta-han not watching.. i guess life's gettin a bit intense for me ba. judgin from e way i talked to my bro jus nw. hmm. n nobody to talk to. as in nobody in mind. thot of tong, n msg-ed her le. bt i guess she's busy at work ba. so gotta wait for her to reply. bt even if she replies, can only sms. can't really talk too. hmm.
yep. i tink partly coz yingjie watch le. i swear i didn't watch at 1am plus last week to watch before her nor did i purposely sms her 2weeks ago to show off. i really wanted to jus share. bt nw coz she already watched le. like nth propelling me to watch. rather than sayin tt it's e fact tt she's watched, so i dun feel e sense of urgency to watch. i shld say tt she doesn't seem tt enthu to continue discussion bout e show w me over phone, so i dun feel e urgency to watch to like crap w her also ba.
yep. bt judging frm her reaction wen i told her yest's las ep, she mus be some die-hard fan too. jus tt she didn't appear to be so that day wen i saw her after gift meeting n wen i was gng S04's BBQ. n like on sms-es, she doesn't seem that high too. so i didn't wan to like go "bother" her. i can high on my own de. tho tt's quite sad. n having someone "rallyin" tgt w u. really is better. bt if she isn't really that high, den i dun wan to be like a mosquito like that, non-stop bug her! haha. yep.
anw jie jus on tv, n i see wan yu. man. supposed to watch mu4 hou4 hua1 xu4 de lo. bt i dun wan to watch also. coz i wan to go slp n haf enough energy to last till friday! haha. actually nt tt hectic la nw tt i tink of it. jus tt a bit scared coz tmr gotta go driving theory lesson alone. so i tink i freak out le. haha. yep. i alr nt afraid of helpdesk le. coz i tink raihanah tinks i quite weak at tt. so i dun haf expectations to meet. n wen ppl tink i CMI, den i dun haf to stress myself. yep. i wun try v hard to prove ppl wrong de. tho i shld coz this is my job n she's like my boss. bt i dun really care v much bout this job tho i tink it's quite ok.. yep.
anw yep. i didn't watch mu hou4 hua1 xu4 also. haha. maybe scared of hou4 yi zhen4 also ba. hmm. i was worried suddenly, am i like no longer having that passion for the show?:P haha. bt given my behaviour durin 4a's outing that day, i dun tink it's no longer my interest:P hehe. yep. n i still am very excited at the thot of possibly havin the xia yi zhan xing fu DVD on my b-dae. so i tink i'm still IN the show!:P hehe.
HAIZ! stupid comp crashed! so i dunno where i stopped!
yep. talking bout hou4 yi zheng4. was sayin totally not prepared bout the "reducing waiting time" by watching the latest ep as late as possible.. coz i really believed that yest's ep was e last ep! haha. bt as i told yj, nt last ep i happy n sad at the same time. sad coz i lost the bet. i really tink quite malu:P hehe. happy of coz coz the show hasn't ended. i'll haf more eps to see! hehe. yay!:D hehe. bt yep. maintain quality pls! as a die hard fan, i really dun wan to see it end shittily.
heh. yep. tong replied le. hehe.
yep yep. guess e ulcer at my gum there is making me heaty? i really quite easily "irritated" now. like jus nw was explainin my analysis at the episodes splittin of xia yi zhan xing fu on SCV n on sugoideas to my sis, i also no patience. wen my bro talked to me, i also dun feel like entertaining him. haiz. i tink i shld go slp now. b4 i quarrel w anyone or piss anyone off. or haf my tears roll down out of frustration.
yep. bt anw my entry title came coz i can't believe tt i actually can wait n nt watch xia yi zhan xing fu. n it's nt like i'm tryin v hard to control, i actually feel quite peaceful n nt very excited to watch it. tt's why i was afraid tt i would lose interest in the show. would be quite sad for me coz it's like tt kind of anticipation, love, craze and fanatism for sth/a show, tt kind of feeling is actually quite fun n maybe "sweet"(coz of the love in the show).. yep. n i'm quite afraid of losing such craze coz it would mean tt i've like lost a source of liveliness n energy like tt.
hmm. bt anw, i tink i still love the show la. maybe coz work stressing me out. maybe ulcer giving me prob. or maybe today's jus a "bad hair day" ba. yep.
kk. go slp.
kheng
02/01/2010
2259h
status: i love xia yi zhan xing fu!(simple bt contains a lot of meaning in it!(:)
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