happy 18/03/13! :D

Hmmm.. tired from doing my reading! So shall blog here! It definitely takes up less cognitive energy! Hehehe. Plus I’m gg to blog about happy stuff! :D hehehe. Yeah! Working 5-10pm today! Supposed to b 4pm, bt I requested to come in later! Coz anw, they’ve enuff ppl, & I wanted to go e career fair! Nt coz I wanted to start sourcing for a job, bt coz wanted it to b like bonding activity w e other SW girls.. hehe. E place was small! & I was only interested in MOH! Really quite upset! Coz I realized tt e mid-term scholarship is for ILTC, I wan hospitals! At least for my first job! & I wan to work w mental health patients! Den e lady din tell me clearly! Coz maybe she thot I knew, den when I spoke to the other guy, then I realized what e scholarship entails….  so was really quite sad, coz I thot I can get $14000 off my uni fees, & then…… haiz.. really quite affected for quite some time, bt okay after tt! (: hehe. Yep! & this morn did SS ppt! :D hehe. Luckily I volunteered to go first! If not, I wun haf gotten e chance to present! & will b damn gek, coz prepared for it le, den in end haf to get postponed! & first ppt plus first wk, hopefully e tutor less strict, bt seriously, 5%.. tho I noe it can make a grade difference to my SS grade! :p hehe. Yeah! & tt’s done, & den tmr Social psych ppt, tmr shouldn’t b tough! & my mini hols start from there! :D hehehehe. Coz only left w this SS project, though heavy, bt tutorials no longer need to prep anymore & no more papers/tests… hehehe. So can fully focus! Plus no more working! After comin out to work part-time this sem, I understand how much time I actually can have normally! & should really study! :p hehehe. Tho is still zhi1 yi4 xing nan! :p hahahahahah. Yeah! E rest of this wk, all recre activities! :p tmr go ha ma hs see max, ah ma & eat ah ma’s home-cooked food! :D hehehe. & then thurs go eat buffet w pau! Fri go out to celebrate mat’s bdae, sat is jus work, everythin w fries w dabong, & then Marriott buffet at night! Sun is bmt, mahjong, dinner w SW girls & then pq’s concert! Hehehe. & then next wk can jus focus on my ss project! (: hehehe. Yep! :D & of coz e biggest happy thing I wan to talk about is yesterday’s kaiyi’s fb msg! :D heheheh. Totally brightened up my entire night!!!! :D hehehe.. I came out from e toilet &was getting ready to start my SS ppt slides.. really a long day & was pissed off a few times in e day! & e point was, TOTALLY din expect tt from kaiyi! Hahahaha. Totally random! It’s like after 9mths since we last spoke? Maybe not, 8 mths! E last time was in july! & nt as if any special occasion! Wondered if it’s SW-day! :p hahaha. So it’s totally a pleasant surprise! Hahahaha. She said she saw the other girl’s post! & I thot her angmoh v bad, coz I thot she referring to e other IMH girls.. bt I went to check, haven’t seen juju’s, bt I dun tink huiwen, mama or marian posted anything to remind her of me.. so I tink might be xue en’s post.. hahahaha. Coz she posted tt she was happy to see e forever positive and chirpy kheng twice in a day! So maybe kaiyi saw it & thot of just finding out hw I was doing? Hehehe. So I’ve to thank xue en I guess! :p Hehe. It came as a nice surprise coz all along, I have been wanting to jus text her & ask how she is.. after all, she is my sup, CNY say a bit of zhu fu is only polite loh.. & she influenced me quite a bit, e card write till like tt, den after tt jus totally lose contact like tt! :p hehehe. Bt I scared she tink I v weird, or siao ah? Suddenly fb her! Plus I wasn’t particularly close to her or anything! :p hehehe. Yep! So there were multiple times I wanted to jus tell her sth! :p hehehe. Like, wen I was tellin pau bout e scholarship last yr during one of our study sessions.. wanted to ask kaiyi for her opinion, coz she works in imh & she was my sup, so she might be able to give me a good assessment of whether I suit tt place or not, but is jus to talk to her! :p hehehe. & also wen I decided to take honours, coz she was the one who got me to reconsider my decision.. & also wen I took the medical mod, got an A+ & got B- for placement, wanted to tell her both! Hehe. Coz I tink for e medical mod, I did v well for e finals & I suspect is coz e finals had a qn on hw u would work w a lady client whom u suspect there is FV.. hehe. & we went thru a similar case of sort during my placement, so I already knew what were e right things to do! :p hehehhe. Yeah! & of coz wen I started taking mental health, & also wen I read e suicide article tt day, coz now, I noe why I should not allow client self-determination even if e client expresses intentions to die.. she did respond to my reflection point on wat I should do in such situations.. hehe. Bt she told me as long as I noe what is my professional responsibility.. hehe. Bt then, after readin e article, I understand tt it’s coz even wen clients express intentions to die, their situation might not really be a dead-end & we shouldn’t just give up so easily! Hehe. Yeah! & also of coz, wen we decided to go hk for our trip! Hahaha. Wanted to tell her & see if we can meet there! Hahaha. Coz saw xinyi they all gg to meet her, so envious! Hahahah. I really tink I like idolizing kaiyi like tt! Siao alr! :p hehehe. Bt anw, yeah! I din contact her at all! :p hehehe. There was another occasion, when I knew bout Fiona having a stroke! So much realisations & growth in me during those few days! & wanted to share w her & also sup (TYM), bt din contact both of them eventually! Dabong did encourage me to jus contact her! Maybe she is interested in maintainin contact w me also! Hahaha. Bt still din in e end! :p hehehe. WHICH made this initiative from her especially precious! :D hehehehe. Can see in all my replies tt I was truly happy & excited to receive her reply! Hahaha. Or maybe she will tink I’m just like tt usually! Which is true also look at e no of hahahah I use in this blog post! :p hehehhe! Yeah! Actually a bit irritating, coz there is a “haha’ or “hehe” after every sentence! :p bt those came from e bottom of my heart k! & I replied at first instance & jus rambled on & jus sent! Din even check whether I said anything inappropriate! :p hehehe. Yeah! & it was an enthu response from her also! Hahaha. Tried to be casual & talk! Hahaha. I mean me.. I jus threw away e sup-barrier! Heheh. & she replied v warm-ly also! So happy! I told dabong & pau immediately! Should go tell ancestor & bearbear too! Bearbear should be e one who understands my feeling e most! Heheheheh. Yeah! :D Yep! So it was totally a pleasant surprise tt totally made my day! & of coz will tink of those imh days! Hehehe. & I tweeted! Din realize mama & huiwen could see! I noe marian dun check tweets v often! Hehe. Din wan to be seen as flauntin! & din wan them to tink tt I’m so crazy bout my sup! :p hehehe. Yeah! Bt it’s ok! Coz they din say much, apparently! :p hehehe. Except tt mama asked me if I was serious bout kaiyi’s msg! Hehe. Yeah! Really happy yest! Of coz as I write, I’m happy! Hehe. She replied me & I replied her. She replied me again at 2300 I tink! Bt I alr was on my bed & there was no notification! So I replied her only this afternoon! Hehe. Maybe coz of e content, not as “warm” bt still haf smiley face! So v satisfied alr! Plus actually kaiyi is nt v IT-style I tink! At least not w fb? She hardly posts anything! Hehe. & her replies to whatever I did send her in email (mostly after I left & in response to e e-card she sent) were short & no smileys also! Hehehe. At least this time got “haha” hahahhahaha. Yeah! Excited! She said should be able to meet up wen we go HK! Hehe. Coz she comin back end of may to write her thesis! Dunno whether is she need some encouragement or nt! Hahaha. She made reference to me, sayin she is writing thesis jus like me! & told me to jiayou for schooling! So I told her e same !:D heheheh w loads of !! & smileys! :p hehehe. Yep! (: Yeah! So should b able to meet up! Previously pau asked if it was possible to organize a dinner time for her to haf dinner w her frens in hk den we sit ard to eat at same restaurant & then different tables! & I did tink of meetin kaiyi at tt time also! Bt of coz din tink of whether I was gg to do it or nt & wen to contact her & stuff! Scared ltr she yi dian dou bu xiang meet bt coz I asked, den paiseh to reject! ;p hehe. Bt also was tink-ing if dun request den she sees our hk pictures, then she gets e idea I so dao1, go there also dun meet up w her!;p hehee. & of coz It matters to me coz it’s not e truth totally! :p hehehe. Yeah! & this fb msg of coz changed things! Coz is she initiate, so most probably, she dun treat me as a EX-intern whom isn’t impt at all I guess? Hehehe. At least she bothered to fb msg me k! for whatever reason! & dabong nicely coined my feeling for me – the you bei xiang dao de gan jue! Hehehe. Yeah!! :D hehehe. Yep! So dunno! Maybe go there sit down & eat will be exactly like wat happened tt time! Wen I went back to collect my reflections for wk 9, jus e we smile SO awkwardly tt it’s like better off not meeting! :p hehehe. Yep! Bt I tink this time round I’ll talk more freely! Hehehe. & haf things to talk bout lah! Hahaha. & tho of coz hope it to be a gatherin between my sup & me only, w marian ard, it will definitely generate more topics! Heheheh. Nt tt I’m possessive, bt I like “individualized” memories more, similarly w sup (TYM), just tt nw perfectly okay w it being bongz + sup! (: hehe. Yeah! Bt okay lah, shalln’t behave like hw I did on my last day! :S hehehe. Tt was totally terrible! & a bad closure! Tink marian might suggest nt joinin also, coz I tink she might noe something coz my face was really yi ge black! Hahaha. Even tho I din say, maybe she would have inferred sth? :p hehehe. Bt nvm bout tt embarrassing behavior! So terrible of me! Hehehe. Yeah! As long as can see kaiyi will be a more glad than anything! Hehehe. Will b happy! & will b a ++ to my grad trip! :D hehe. Bt shalln’t try too hard, coz my theory goes “ things tt I pray too hard to have, usually end up disappointing me!” hehehe. Yep! Maybe kaiyi wun b free, maybe we wun b able to squeeze out a meal to meet her.. & no point making 6 other ppl upset if I insist for my own selfish reasons & make e remaining 14days of trip a terrible one! Hehe. Must prioritise! Hehehe. & grad trip is once in a lifetime, w kaiyi, maybe in future got chance? Even if dun haf…. Hahaha. I guess I should prioritize these 6 other ppl over her & their memories above mine? Hehehe. Yep!  I believe I’ll b sensible enuff to not insist things go my way bt I hope I will b able to control myself if things dun turn out e way I hope them to be & behave appropriately! :D hehehe. Yep! Hahah. Kk.. time to stop blogging, tho I dunno wat else I can do in this remaining 15mins! :p hehehe. Yeah! :D Kheng. 2134hrs.