freak sian. i come home. e first sentence my mum said to me was in tt kind of freaking irritated tone! ass la! wat did i do wrong man!
den my sis n bro start suan-ing me. they think i tryin to find excuses. they think i'm tryin to wat "yi tui wei jing". i jus dun understand why can't they understand me?
i really wanted to give her e comfort of the room to study. i care for her. perhaps to her.the word living doesn't make any difference to her ba. it's jus me who's tryin to act smart. i'm not askin for anyone to understand or to give me credit or anythin. bt why can't they jus understand me? nvm.
control emotions? i think i can only say i can't n dun wish like. coz i believe in trust. if ppl make use of it n screw me up or backstab me. den i will learn frm e experience. coz if i do show my emotions. it jus means tt tt person mean something to me. i do feel upset tt tt person insult me/misunderstand me or dun understand me.
bt i guess i jus haf to shut up ba. as wat'll always be said, "wo mei you jiao ni rang wo/mai gei wo" or worse "wo mei you jiao ni kapo".. haiz. suan4 le. kheng will continue to do wat she believe in being right. even if ppl suan me for tt. even if ppl think i'm acting smart/acting noble. even if ppl think i'm petty after my face turn black coz they dun believe me.
really is too much "bad" company. feel like scolding F now. F!
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