雷霆扫毒 ~~ 2nd post

hmmmm.. just finished watching 雷霆扫毒, the last few episodes! tt time didn't watch finish coz din wan to face it! coz i knew xu zi shan wun haf a good ending! expected! & the show was too dark! i tink it was a good decision! finished watching le! (: coz EXAMS ENDED!:D hehee. tt kind of happiness really is sit down on the bus, on the way home also will smile to myself!:p hahahah! bt really v happy! maybe coz past 3 days of studying for history really v torturous! hehehe. esp this morn! bt at least the papers are all over! worked harder than usual this sem! hehe. so deserve this break i tink? :p at least more than previous sems! :p hehehe. :p feel guilty/ashamed to say i deserve! bt no reason can enjoy dun enjoy rite? :p bt anw, back to the show! yep! finished watching! really v sad! bt i tink took a break from the show, so okay, din put myself too much in xu zi shan's position! & could see how self-fulfilling prophecy takes place! coz she tinks she dun deserve a good ending, tt's why she did all the destructive things & died in e end.. & she & the Sandy took turns to be in coma.. perhaps their illness experience reflects their lives bah! coz sandy believes in creating change, so she survived.. coz she believed in her 命该绝, tt's why she died! yep! bt tt time i watched i also told myself, sometimes we tink we haf control & blame ppl who blame it on their fate for nt working hard, bt sometimes, really is "no choice".. jus like e "black cops".. only after they explained then i realised it's really not tt simple.. even if they went to turn in themselves, they still couldn't guarantee safety! yeah.. yep! of coz took a break & so happened tt e tv - both the xing he channel & yue jia channel all showing xu zi shan's shows - 团圆，美丽高解像，家好月圆，甜言蜜语。。 i could see many of her shows & din feel so deprived, so din haf the "omg! finally got her show!" feel & din like so desperate wait for her to appear in every scene! :p the ironic thing is her role towards the end was so much greater! i kept seeing her! so feel v satisfied! :p heheh. not bad! this show quite realistic! gordon died, she died.. not tt unrealistic.. actually nw tvb shows nv unrealistic le.. is too realistic.. v painful endings.. luckily this one not too painful.. at least she managed to tell sandy to take care of wei sir - shows tt she really cares bout him.. & she managed to "die in his arms" & apologise! yep! & she managed to give birth to her son.. is e idea of hope bah, tt a child represents! (: yep! omg! so awesome! hehe. & the good thing is wei sir nv get tgt w sandy! if i'm a fan of sandy, i'll b damn sad! bt wei sir really loves tt ah pat too much.. right frm the beginning where he went crazy to save her & all tt, alr knew he is really faithful to her! though a bit sudden why he suddenly fell in love w her.. bt all e things he do is understandable coz his love exceptionally serious! yeah! haha. or rather in front too exaggerating le.. so towards the back, eh.. seems quite expected! :p hehehe. & understandable! :P hahaha. bt yep! wah biang, jus nw he nearly got tgt e sandy, i wanted to faint! hahaa. coz cannot, if he loved ah pat so deeply, hw can switch so quickly? tho i tink tt sandy really loves him.. bt i din wan him to b tgt w her! hahaha. luckily nv! :p hehehe. satisfied! :P & so scared the story would end there! like so ambiguous! hahaha. coz he said as long as haf hope, anythin is possible.. den they showed all e flashbacks! & purposely cut out xu zi shan's face loh! arghh!! & sandy's parents walked away being v happy! scared me! & i was like "omg! this is like e tvb's new style of ending the show.. the feel lai liao!!!" ...... hahaha. luckily nv end there! :P hehe. end w him tgt w ah pat's son! hahaha. & got slight flashbacks of their tgt scenes! so i v happy & satisfied! :D hehehe. maybe it means he was tgt w sandy? i dunno! bt i dun care! at least nv explicitely say! hahahaha. actually i really crazy! just a show! e ppl dun even exist.. bt watch drama & wan to enjoy is like tt de mah.. if so detached, would nv feel anything & will nv love the show lo! :p hehehe. bt it's nice! :p hehe. i knew it lah.. ah pat dun deserve to survive! coz she smuggled DRUGS leh! tsk tsk! tho i would haf loved to see a happier ending! bt i noe shows haf the responsibility to "teach us the right values".. if bad ppl end up being fine, though she is being forced by circumstances.. might nt shuo1 very tong1 also! :p hehe. yep! & this brings me to wat madam yu said.. "i cannot really tell who is a good person or a bad person.. many ppl do many bad things bt b4 they die, do sth good, & they are seen as good.. many ppl do many good things, bt because of brothers, ppl they love, they do bad things & they are regarded as bad...." the first statement is like describing ah pat, the 2nd refering to gordon.. bt yep! no matter wat, drama & moral values teach me tt both will die! hahaha. or rather both wun end up w happy ending! whether it happens in real life or nt, it doesn't matter, coz i wun noe also, bt in drama, it mus happen.. if nt quite a big blow to "human race" i feel! :p yep! & of coz.. i look at ah pat.. i really wonder hw many "baddies" out there r like her.. hw many times haf we not looked at someone's bg b4 sentencing tt person to a cultural death penalty? bt of coz, hw able m i to apply this theory in life? if i see a violent perpetrator, am i able to apply this? probably nt! heh! I felt so much coz i like xu zi shan, so i'm very into her role as well! yep! & actually her life also seemed v bleak! which was why wen i watched the first 20+ episodes previously, i felt v affected & v dark too! & i guessed why gordon kept the money to himself correctly! somehow tt time wen i left e show, everything was dark. wen i come back this time, "tin1 dou1 gong1 sai3!" hahaha. quoting frm the cantonese! like everythin came to light! ironically! maybe is tt time i too into the show! or maybe coz of e break, i see a diff picture (coz i forgot wat happened in front! :p e impact nt as great! :p) yep! bt anw, glad! coz xu zishan was awesome! hahaha. her role requires a lot of crying! & my belief always is: if u're in a role tt requires u to cry non-stop, it means u've reached a certain standing liao.. coz u really need to be good & be able to act! she's jus awesome! hahaha. maybe real life is a bitch? i dunno, bt who cares! i jus like her! & she will b wat is being constructed by her agents & wat i choose to believe she is! :p hopefully she will win e best actress award this yr! & hopefully more productions will come along the way! i alr haf many dramas to catch up! coz tvb recent productions all not bad! bt i hope will haf more tt is w her de! :D hehe. her past shows, e one tt i wan to watch again is 情越双白线, hoping it will b shown on tv soon! :D hehe. coz can't find it frm online sources alr! :( hehe. bt yep! nw jus catch up on other shows! & do all e things i've been wanting to do AFTER EXAMS! :D heheheh. nt bad! at least a production tt i'm happy w! hehehe. nt a bad start to my HOLIDAYS! :D hehehe. yep! hmm. shall go watch her post-潜行狙击 movie! in both shows she also act as baddie loh.. hopefully i wun feel too mixed up! :p & hopefully this will be a good production - decent and logical plot, & haf many of her scenes, no ambiguous endings please! :P hehehe. my fears of tvb dramas nw! :p hahahaha. yep! bt i love TVB! & i love their drama productions!:D tvb FTW! :D hehehe. kheng(: