haha. after gng out on mon w tong! my doubts were cleared!:D haha. n v happy. one of them incldued tt i've a greater faith n belief tt tong n i will be buddies for e many years to come. tho many things in life haf no guarantee. bt i guess based on current prediction, we shld be able to be buddies n last on ba(: haha. for e very least, i noe things wun change till we go for our U. yep. i'm jus afraid tt things will change wen we go to U. wen she goes overseas. or after today's talk w jie, maybe wen we go out to work. yep. bt i guess my way of being friends w her wun change ba. coz jie was telling me tt wen we grow up, wen we go out to work, we'll see e true colours of e world out there, bt dun change e way we originally treat our friends, esp those whom we were once v close w. yep. i guess i wun ba. bt again. nothin in this world is guaranteed. yep. bt i'll try my best nt to de(:
yep. it's like tong is forever a good listener, really. after this half year of very little interaction or time spent w her, i still concluded based on mon's meet-up tt she's my best listener! haha. yep. all my other friends really cannot hold a candle to tong. haha. yep. n she's really v nice. i feel v secured n protected being w her. haha. n e fact jus remains as she's so nice. nice like in e past when we wld sit at bus stops after gift sessions n jus talk. even tho i noe she needs to go home, we wld still talk n talk n talk. haha. n on mon, she jus took 97 w me to JE tho it was e longer way home. n i did it too:P haha. coz i wanted to give her e book mah. haha. n also coz i wanted to spend more time w her. she's so busy n might be grounded by her mum soon, of coz mus make good use of e rare opportunity to spend more time tgt. haha. yep(:
yep yep. n tong is really my best buddy! i dun usually call ppl buddies de. yep. n i think ka wld be a little disappointed to see this, bt i guess tong has overtook her ba. i noe i might sound v childish to rank my friends. haha. bt actually i dun see anythin "wrong" w it. i mean of coz ppl who mean more to me shld be given more attention, more effort wen i do their b-dae presents, more consideration wen i use my "limititated" sms... n so on:P haha. of coz ka is still impt. i'll always rmb her askin me in sec 3 whether r we still good friends, coz tt showed tt she treasured me as a good friend. n while i didn't lie den n it still holds true now tt even if we dun talk or interact or get tgt v often, our friendship wld never change. n it's still true now. jus tt i'm closer to tong now.
yep. i jus feel tt she's closer to norine nw. wen i occassionally throw tantrums by pretending to ignore her n norine during OC outing, actually i mean it deep inside my heart, coz we(ancestor n i) are so distant frm their lives, their world. actually they are also v distant frm my world, simply coz we aren't in e same sch. even anqi noes more than ka wat's happening to my world. i'm nt sayin tt as petty words. bt i'm jus sayin tt w real geographical distance comes real distance in e friendship. bt i guess at least ancestor n i dun talk bout NJ stuff non-stop wen we r at OC outing ba? i hope at least? tho i mus admit we did do tt during e more recent get-tgts. n for me, it's kind of "revenge" mentality ba. it takes effort, n even tho it might be hard, u jus haf to make e effort to make sure ur friend follows u in wat u're saying? if nt why get tgt? it's nt tt u dun talk bout it, coz it jus makes ur friend less aware of wat's happening to u, bt makin it clear n nt get too engrossed it wat u're saying? luckily dere's still ancestor:P yep. i dun blame them, jus feels tt it makes us more distant.
yep. bt again. even w all these little things, i still feel v close to ka. yep. n b4 i went maldives, i was being cautious in case i die in e flight coz of e tamil tigers bombing, i told tong wen i was replyin her sms tt if i were to die, she mus noe tt other than ka, she's my bestest buddy. n at tt time, i ranked them of equal importance. bt w mon's outing, i guess i've to admit tt tong has overtook ka. let me reiterate, nt tt ka's nt as close as me, bt jus tt tong has became closer w me. yep. as simple as tt. bt of coz such things cannot be publicly announced de, even if ka also let norine overtake me, i guess i'm still of a bit of importance n if i say tt, she'll still nan mian feel a bit sad? haha. yep.
n dunno why, maybe coz tong n i walked past tt kind of wedding shops tt day, i thot of her being my bridesmaid in future. haha. feel like. n a strong urge. n mus say there's a strong belief tt we'll still be good friends? haha.
i'm jus a bit worried tt if we dun haf such close interactions n gng thru same schedules like same sch, same hist class, we wld drift apart n haf nothing to talk bout. i'm jus afraid. bt i guess such stuff can only leave it to fate? haha. of coz i'll make constant effort to talk to tong n make sure we go out often n talk tgt(: haha. yep.
mon was really so fun! haha. tho i wanted to go walk around, bt in e end i only cared bout talkin to tong tt i didn't look at e stuff. perhaps coz upon e 2nd visit, i realised actually e shopping places at suntec were nothing, tt's why i only cared bout talkin to tong. haha. n maybe coz i was e one who was talkin most of e times, so i didn't fen1 xin1 n look ard:P haha.
yep. bt b4 gng out, i jus realised tt if i've tonnes of things to tell tong, to complain to her, n wen we're out, i jus care bout talking, it wld make me v tensed n i'll be so preoccupied w talkin n complainin. yep. n if i didn't finish, i wld feel tt e outing isn't v satisfactory. haha. yep. n so i jus talked bout stuff tt i wanted to say wen i got e chance, n wen i got cut, i jus left it as it's. except for my "friend"(hargao n my lang), tong remembered all tt i was cut away, n eventually brought them back n eventually i seemed to got e chance to tell her everythin:P hahahaha. yep.
nice(: jus realised i didn't hear much frm her. nxt time wen we go out, mus make her talk. or rather let her talk, coz i kept talkin non-stop:P haha. same as e day before wen i went ancestor's house, i kept talkin n talkin till i got thirsty man! hahaha. yep. n even asked her for water:P hahaha.
yep yep. n wen i went out w tong, i was on e record of havin nt slept for 24h! haha. jus to do her super belated b-dae present!:P haha. yep. n quite stunned i could still remain tt awake wen i was out w her! haha. maybe coz she let me do all e talkin:P hehee. n jus too happy to be out w tong(: hahaha. bt b4 tt wen waitin for her at e bus stop, i really yawned non-stop. like 1 min yawn more than 10 times i guess? haha. yep. n soon after we met up, i was coughin, den felt like puking n for e whole while i was w her, i didn't feel like anything, nt even subway cookies, ice-cream, fried stuff! n all tt i managed was e biscuits she bought n a cup of iced lemon tea. haha. n it's her treat too:P haha. yep.
n i'm think e photo we took tgt was jus so nice! hahaha. n it's nw my wall paper(: haha. yep. happy n satisfied! n i'm v sure we r only buddies, n i feel nothin more than tt! haha. i'm nt a les! hahaha. yep. jus v v happy n glad to haf found back my bestest buddy, tong! found back as in e assurance n e affirmation tt she's my BEST buddy(: haha.
e photo!
i still perfer e 2nd one(: haha. coz i smiled nicer:P haha. n we didn't look tt apart:P haha. nice photo!:D haha. i hope tt i wld be able to upload e photo of us during my wedding w her as my bridesmaid!:D haha. e focus is nt tt i'll be able to get married(which i really hope i can:P haha.), bt tt we'll still be buddies then, n she'll be my bridesmaid! haha. bt it'll be weird seeing tong in a dress? hahahaha.
kheng(:
04-06-09
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