haha. today has been a happy day(: Haha. totally okay w halal ham nw(: hahaha. yep. hope it'll sustain(: kheng hopes to be happy everyday jus like nw! hahaha. yep. n during physics kind of understood a bit more n gained a bit more confidence for it! haha. yep. this weekend shall chiong physics! haha. bt also wan to do other subjects. so maybe split equally ba! haha. see first!:P haha. bt nw is play first! hehe. later go play typing maniac n puzzle bubble! hahaha.
n jus nw after gp was bridgin at oasis again. our bridgin club-hargao, hotdog n matt! haha. our std bridgin partners tho we can easily swop ard n play w each other during common breaks since e proportion of ppl in our class who knows how to play bridge is 17/24! haha. n maybe we missed 0ut some? haha. yep. n b4 gp, matt n i went to cls den went to join e rest for bridgin even for tt 20mins or so. hahahaha. really think our class are like addicts! hahahaha. or rather me la:P hahaha. yep.
den after tt went hm w hotdog n hargao. they gng imm, den i was gng je lib. so we were talkin n havin fun. haha. yep. mus cherish such times. haha. yep.
n went for gift borrowin books. only aini, andala n me plus weishi n sharnie who joined us later. bt we managed to borrow e books we needed within quite a short time. maybe coz we nid less books this time ba. n also w e help of some of aini/andala's friends. yep. jus dunno hw will gift progress on. man. it's like i think v little ppl noe gift's startin nxt week. n e borrowin book session i dun tink everyone knew? or at least e seniors didn't noe. eh. excludin me of coz. hehee. yep. at least in e past still got bout 10. hmm. bt well. shall nt tink or comment too much first. see first. perhaps gift will turn out better? coz jus nw weishi they all were talkin to aini quite comfortably i tink?(: haha. yep.
n on way hm, there's this pair of gals. they were talkin n 1 was complainin bout her boss wrongly accusing her. n i thot they were 20plus? haha. typical office ladies talkin bout work. haha. in e end wen tt gal was about to alight, she asked her fren wen they meetin again. n b4 she alighted she was doin this slap hand thing w her fren n she said v childish coz v old alr. n they were sayin tt was frm sec 1, den they said 6years. haha. nt tt i wan to eavesdrop, bt they were by my side n not talkin v softly lo. haha. yep. so they r 19! hahaha. i'll be like them nxt year. haha. n again, i'm reminded of tong! haha. v bad. wenever think of frens, she'll come to mind 1st b4 anyone else. hehee. yep.
hmm. this point of time nxt yr she wld be overseas? actually i noe she wants to go overseas tho she feels uncertain n is uncertain, coz i feel tt local u education will only screw her mindset more n i dun wan my fren here to turn out to be another 1 who feels totally bleak bout life.. yep. tho i will seriously miss her alot n might nt be able to find another better person to hear me rant too..(unless i find a bf? haha. or someone whom can listen like tong do..) haha. yep. bt i wish for e best for her. for all my friends. haha. i'm kind!:P hahaha. yep.
haha. n was thinkin i'll tell her we mus meet up at least once per month in future n of coz keep in close contact after graduation.. haha. yep. tell her tt wen i write letter for her during last day of sch this yr. dere's tt kind of farewell letter tradition tho i dun in e least mean it as a farewell. still rmb sec 4. haha. i really shld count my blessings tt so many of my gd frens r in NJ. really. yep. haha. n this morn wen leavin class to go for physics. i saw her! haha. if it's prior to yest's durian incident, prob i will only smile den walk away. haha. bt kind of "got over it" alr, so i was like so happy wen i saw her n i was like "yitong!:D" haha. yep. n she was takin her thermometer so i asked her where did she go. she didn't reply bt she did a super dumb thing. she tried to mess up my fringe! bt in e end kind of scratched my forehead! hahaha. n wen i turned ard to wan to scold her for messin w my hair, i banged into someone n she's laughin at her dumbness n apologising for scratchin me accidentally. haha. jus think v cute incident! haha. yep. mus write down. coz such small things will fade away frm memory v easily de. haha. n i hope to keep them n "revisit" them in future. haha. yep.
perhaps it's ppl tt matter to me ba. so every little thing tt happens can make me v happy. haha. i also dunno why i'm so sticky to tong. haha. n as i was thinkin bout it. i realised during J1, we really went out a lot! haha. n wat really helped was e gp lesson. haha. w tard! haha. think e friendship btw e 3 of us is so special. haha. yep. tho tt's only twice a week, we really talked more n interacted more than nw e 4days of hist lesson per week. yep. so this proves tt qty is nt always better. quality is. haha. yep.
haha. n ancestor this morn also v nice. haha. i didn't go oasis n went cls straight coz i reached sch like bout on time. haha. n she caught up w me frm behind while i was walkin to cls. haha. den we were talking. haha. n she asked me why i didn't update my blog le. so i told her i nv write le. haha. n in e end i still told her bout my this private blog. bt nt e add. coz i told her i dun wan burden ppl to read my blog. n i dun wan to tell so many ppl coz if i wan to tell my close friends, i wld nid to tell tong, ka, bear, her, fy, fh, yj, ch, vale, mat, den nid tell siblings.. haha. n in e end will snowball until dunno wat. haha. yep. n she understood. haha.
n b4 tt i was sayin i felt tt readin my blog was a burden to others, bt she said is a guan dao for me to vent/share my feelings. haha. n b4 we parted at e 3rd level, i told her she's one of my guan dao. n she was like so touched. hahaha. bt really mah. this year, my main pillar of support really has been her. n tong tho we didn't talk or meet as much, there's e book i wrote to her.. n also hargao to a certain extent. coz of our hokkien craze:P hahaha. yep.
yep. dunno leh. if i tell ppl my blog. i fear their opinions of me wen i write. i scared e blog might get spread out. i scared they will say in public "i thot u said in ur blog..." den some others whom i was prob supposed to share my blog add w bt i didn't wld prob b feelin bitter? at least i will if i m 1 of the "others" i described above. hee. yep. den i wld be writing to appeal to their emotions. i dun wan to turn them off(e opinions part) n it kinda becomes such tt i can't write certain things or haf to make it sound rather politically right. yep. n wen i write w certain ppl in mind n they dun read, i kind of feel v disappointed. n also e expectations tt come along coz i wld expect those who read my blog to understand me better n stuff n if i find out they haven't been readin my blog, i wld be upset while i noe my blog entries r always v long n nt considered an entertainment lo. so if given a choice i wld go do other stuff like surf facebook if nt for conscience sake. so it feels like i'm weighin on them. so i chose nt to. anw i wrote always w tong n ka in mind. bt i jolly well noes tong dun follow my blog n i guess ka reads at one shot. haha. as much as i wan to noe more bout her life, n my other good friends. readin long entries do bring e procrastination character in me out. haha. yep. n since i dun read, it's jus fair tt i dun make them read. coz e writing of blogs have always been to record down stuff so tt i can look back in future to refer to as memories. nv to "gain attention". yep. bt perhaps nxt yr i might haf to write coz tt's prob e most convenient way for them to noe more bout me. yep. n nxt yr wen i dun haf to be wary of offending them since interactions greatly reduce, perhaps i can write w more of a free style(: haha. yep. nxt time den say ba(: haha.
yep tt's all! time to play! kheng loves today!:D haha.
kheng(:
10-07-09
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