status update..

hmm. also dunno whether allowed to blog now anot. bt dun care. i kinda can't wait to get e sack. maybe coz i assume there'll be another job offer waitin for me outside. nearer to my hs. higher pay. more freedom ba. e only reason why i'm still stayin is coz i'm unsure if e offer is still on there.. n i guess tt time wen e JC maths tuition failed, it's prob a warning/reminder to me to be more feelin n less heartless to treat e place/agent/bosses tt gave me such a good job tt way by kickin them aside jus like tt. yep.

anw really no mood. actually he didn't do anythin wrong. i'm very sure i'm affected by it coz i mind how he sees me or he is an impt fren or person to me. i'm jus v affected by e fact tt i dun tink i'm ready to accept his criticism yet. coz we aren't exactly good frens n he's nt my direct superior/colleague/senior. yep.

actually he say already is really only good n nothin bad for me. coz i realised how serous e problem of my messy hair is n i really got e msg/alert to do something to my hair. bt i'm totally not appreciative eh.. really. n i dun feel bad at all.

coz i still dun like e fact tt he's in no position to like say me. i noe he didn't mean it as a criticism, really good advice.. bt why mus he add e part tt if it's his daughter, he would haf scolded? i really cannot take tt..haiz. how ah? ppl give me good advice i still upset w ppl over it. is this hao ren mei hao bao?

bt frm this incident, i jus learnt how my sis feels wen she always say, "guan1 ni shen me4 shi4?" n really is dun be kapo. so wat if u mean well. jus care bout urself first. dun go n kapo bout others' business. even if u mean well. coz even like for me tho i totally noe he means well, i'm still not happy bout it. n i totally feel like ignoring him now. i noe he would be quite upset if he knows bout it. but sorry. tt's how i really feel n i've no idea how to bring myself back onto e balance..

yep.. n after tt he even sent another sms again to remind me. i tink coz of e VIPs.. n this morn he even commented tt got improvement. n still sms me to ask me to keep up e good work. he really thinks i'm his junior/subordinate? man. i really feel like using a more sacarstic tone n say even harsher stuff. bt i tink tt is v mean of me. so i'm controllin.. hmm..

yep. dun understand. bu4 jie3.. or izzit not a matter of who is he to me? coz seemingly wen ka told me in sec 2 or sth, i was also pretty upset bout it.. even ka eh.. i dunno whether haf i improved over e years anot.. so i really can't compare.. hmm..

yep. feel like stoppin now. dun blog le.

kheng(:
25/03/10
status: really no mood for anything