Shall use eng coz will type faster!
Hmm.. Jus cleared comp's stuff & realised Tt yah really left a huge huge impact on me! Was clearing e folders & saw e common memories we had, e camp, e bdae celebrations, e 2011 graduation.. All e videos, ppt, plans, cards we did.... Only haven't look at photos! & there i'll b thinkin wat exactly happened! Such tt dashen became so distant w us. Bt nth is gg to bring us back! Can only say tt we went thru a lot, as e entire yah team! Bt i dun really wan to recall e times i worked w her. As in nt really holdin it close to my heart or anythin! Wat i'm holdin close is jus e times we went by tgt as e big team! Nt tt i'm heartless or wan to 记仇 & make myself 痛苦. Bt i really no longer feel proud of e times dashen & i spent tgt. Each time i tink of them, i'll only b reminded of hw it changed & tt nothin is for sure! Those times definitely were still special moments, bt since e r/s has changed so much nw, those moments r no longer valuable coz it's e 感情 tthas 变质-ed alr. Yep. Bt yah will still remain close to my heart. Forever!
& also jus nw went to haf dinner w ade, gege, kl, jie & ah ma! Den my sis was sayin hw old we r nw! & tt my grandma is old alr, & tt she is unlikely to b able to see Max grow up! Of coz felt sad! As i looked intently at my grandma, i realised hw dear she is to me! Honestly, if u put my grandma & i on an island, we probably wun b able to talk for days & days & days! Bt tt is nt impt at all, it's e mental connection! Wat they mean by pri caregiver in attachment theory ba! & really will miss my grandma wen she leaves us!
Yep! Hehe! Yest was lookin at my whatsapp w pingping den realised i like quite irritatin! Hahahah! Den today she din reply whole day after congratulatin me for endin exams! Haha! Until 1am plus den she told me her batt low! Haha!
Jus nw i saw our photo on comp wen e screensaver changed to hers! & i wonder wat is it bout pingping tt makes me treat her as such an imt fren nw! Hahaha! It's really amazing! Wat kind of bonds do i've w her? I'm like so "attached" to her nw tt she is like my v v good fren! Hahaha! Totally irrational! & of coz, i do fear a repetition of esther & dashen! Yep! Bt heck la! Told myself cannot b so sticky to pingping le! Was happy she said she can continue to b part of my 21 yrs onwards life! Bt nt sure hw we can maintain it also! Hehe! Bt i definitely will! Jus cannot b too sticky! Heh! Bt i hope it wun end up bein like esther/dashen like tt!! ;/
Yep! & was talkin to my sis also! Yep! Cannot b takin chances! I've to make good use of my life nw! 好好地make use of my life! Wat's my LT goal? Work towards it! 人因梦想而伟大！
Yep! Really so much 感触！e day b4 my 2nd placement starts, will dedicate my fb post to yah! Thank them once again! & embark on my "第二人生＂! Hopefully this time round, i can sustain my mayday's concert's inspiration & really embark on my 第二人生！:)
Kheng.
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