RHh!!! Omg! My blog auto-restarted!!! Rah!! I shld haf saved first!!! :(:(:(:( nw haf to retype!!! :(:(
Bt went back to IMH today! Hehe! V happy! Coz saw mama, huiwen, hui en, weiping, ginn & kaiyi! :D hehehh! At first quite awkward & mama & i jus stood near e door until weiping came! Hehehe! & yah, all e other colleagues! & everyone's "u guys r back!" aww! So sweet! Jus like tt time we went back to yah! Jus tt tt one is in chinese! Heheheh!
Den nicole mama & huiwen were super sweet! Nicole mama wanted to u-turn to fetch me on our way in! & den after tt i said i walk in faster, den she stopped near e turn in part & drove me in! & drove huiwen & i out to e bus stop! :D
& huiwen also!! <3 so sweet! Find back e e lub lub friendship le! :D towards end of plCement, jus felt tt she was angry w me or sth! Bt jus nw totally okay le! We talked, & she let me hold on to her! & walked me to e circle line at serangoon b4 walkin back to e purple line there! <3 i'm filled w so much love!!! <3
She said tt fiona & her v 谈得来! Jus like e 2 of us! Aww! Sweet max!!! Hehehe! Can do her a nice bdae card w all my love msg le! Hehehe! Coz tt time no time to do e farewell cards le! Plus tt time din feel tt she still lub me, so din write a lot also! Heheh!
Reachin le! Rahh!! Why din i save e post jus nw! Continue blggin maybe tonight bah! Hehe! Or can continue nw also lah! Maybe ltr! :)
Yeah! Waitin for qimin & ancestor! Can blog in e meanwhile! Omg! Really was awkward moment after kaiyi passed me e reflections! Wanted to chat bt dunno wat to say also! Heheh! Bt yes! I did my classic *walk past juju & huiwen's desks & call "kaiyi!"* heheheh! & she turned ard & was like "eh! U guys r here!" hehehe!
Tt day dreamt of kaiyi! Dreamt tt there were new interns! & e intern was able to build a personal r/s w her! So envious! & a bit of self-blame also! Hehehe! Bt actually these 10 wks, i tink i did try! Bt i din try beyond my comfort level! I tink if let me choose dun build tt perosnal r/s vs attempt to build den in e process run e risk of her being v irritated by this intern, i choose e 1st! Hehehe! Maybe i've lost a lot in this process of fear & holdin back, bt i'm nt willin to risk! Heheh! So much for wat she told me bout risk-takin rite? Oh man! Hehe! Bt yah la, nvm! Heheh!
I tink certain things r meant to b in this way! Hehe! Continue ltr! Hehe!
Hehe! Yeah! Affer tt went to sing k w ancestor & qimin, den dinner & HTHT w OC till 1plus am! Omg! So tired by e time i bathed & dried my hair! No time to continue bloggin! Hehe!
Bt yep! Yah lo, wanted to wait for her to come back den say bye bye to her b4 leavin! Bt mama needed to go! & it was quite late le! :( yeah! So i was whinin & whinin coz din see my sup b4 we left! So i texted her lo! Better than nth, she told me to take care! Hehehe!
Yeah! I went to her table to see whether got my card or nt! Hehe! Nvm! My comfort to myself is tt maybe she kept e card at home or sth! Hahahah! To read! Hahahah! & she was on afternoon 3rd call! Wondered if she was stationed at outpatient! Bt jiat khee said she shld b nt back frm lunch! I shld haf looked at who else was on duty & see if they were in office rite! Aiyah! Hahaha! Bt yeah! Quite upset din get to see my sup again b4 i left! Bt e awesome short private time w huiwen cheered me up totally! :D hehe! & e dinner & HTHT w OC was awesome! :D e karoake was okay, jus tt i can't sing v well, so will get a little sian! Hehehe!
Yep! & wat i told myself is jus to "秉持 e things i learnt frm kaiyi/ e things i was inspired w! Hehe! She really inspired me in a lot of things! Hehe! She tgt w e 10 wks of placement, bt 50% or more comes frm her! Hehe! I expressed them all in e card! Hehehe! Nt sure whether my 10 wks of awkward behavior did "over-write" e card's words or nt, bt e card is more reflective of e truth! :p heheheh! Yeah!
Bt yep! Maybe she might b thinkin yest wen i go back, after all e card/e-card & fb & everythin, i'll b more relaxed or easier to engage? Bt aiyoh, still give tt awkward look! My eyes did meet hers when i was talkin to liz, bt we jus looked away! Tt's why i said, no choice lo, i've been given like so many restart points bt i still go back to e same startin pt/walk e same path! Hehe!
Bt maybe kaiyi also feel awkward! Or she doesn't haf e intention to move on to being a fren w me also! Hahahah! So suan4 le! Hehe! It isn't a 遗憾 for me, bt sth tt i find quite 可惜 for sure! Yep! Wat would i do differently if given e chance? I also dunno! Hahahah! Bt yep! :)
Continue ltr! Shall sleep on bus! Hehhe!
Hehe! Yep! Jus went to eat korean BBQ w pau! Heh! & den go shoppin! & went to do work! Talked 9/10th of e time! Hehehe! Bt it's ok! Coz we had some meaningful discussions on e paper :) hehe! Tink i'll write a much better paper out this time! Hehehe! Saw my previous paper, jus tink it is a lousy one! Heheheh! Hopefully will b a change this time round!
Hhe! Was talkin w pau, den realised actually kaiyi isn't all tt perfect! Bt towards e end wen she let me take e cases & we had such good supervisions, i really forgot totally bout her "fierce-ness" at pt! Hehe! Bt pau brought it up! & i thot of hw i've missed such good processin w her if i could haf brought it up! It'll b learnin for her if she's nt aware or good learnin for me if she's aware! Hehe! Bt yeah, i jus din haf e courage lah!
& i'm also thinkin of hw much more i would haf gained if i were more darin in requestin for supervision on my learnin logs & also askin for cases & stuff! Yep! Suddenly feel tt tho i learnt a lot, i missed a lot also! Coz i'm unlikely to get so much supervision in future wen i go out to work? Yeah! :/
Bt i also noe, i did try in e process! Bt jus nt brave enuff to say! It's nt as if i wasn't aware! Bt even more jiatlat rite? Aware bt din push for it! Bt i tink it's all bout learnin! Learnin hw to request for things also? Hehe! My next supervision will b better! Hehee! Dun tink i'll get e chance, bt if i go back & go under kaiyi's charge again! Hahahah! Will there b a change? Heheh! Bt jus tinkin lah! Hahah! Unlikely i guess? Heheh! & hopefully i get internship opportunities this comin hols & nxt june hols! Hehe! I'll go look for them! Hehe! Proactive!
Yep! & back! Hehe! Yest i had a nice short catch up w ginn! Hehe! & also hui en! Hehe! So awesome to see them! & i was told to go take a look at e new room 10! I din go coz of time! & din wan to hold huiwen back! Bt i shld haf gone lah! To see doris & kelly also!! & i saw michael uncle wen i was at kaiyi's table! Den i did my twist! & he was like stunned to see us! Heheh! Den kaiyi went "nah! Ur pinky is back!" den brandon went "har?! What pinky?!" hahahahah! Den kaiyi explained & nicole mama asked me why pinky! Heheh! So cute rite? :p
05/08/12
Yep! Forgot wat else i wanted to blog bout tt day! Bt it's a nice exp gg back tt day! Seeing all e ppl, & of coz w huiwen & MAMA! <3 <3 & tt did motivate me to write my paper! Hehehe! Coz i thot of all e inspiration i got from placement! Hehe! & i started on my paper quickly! Hehehe! Tho still ended up sleepin at 6am tt morn b4 submission & wakin up at 9am to chiong! Hahaha! Bt yep! :D
Khengs :)
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