happy(:

hehe. man. i really enjoyed today's outings!:D hehe. firstly was to celebrate tong's b-dae!:D hehe. i guess all e emo-ness for e past few days was worth while, coz i was really v relieved n happy jus nw! really. hehe. n it's coz of tt emo-ness, tt's y i got fangyi to go sing k w me today! hehe. n i had e 2nd part of my fun today!(: hehehe.

yep.. fri wen i was gng thru e photos, had e feeling of last year wen i was lookin thru tong's facebook.. den sat morn was chionging like nobody's business, suddenly felt tt i dunno my fren well.. it's like she can haf such crazy moments, bt she's totally like so different wen w me.. man.. i began to wonder haf i like imposed any "restrictions" on my fren tt she's only tt way wen w me? yep.. n all e emo-ness came. reflected on my reliance on tong, n realised it's so unhealthy! it's like my whole world revolves around her... yep..

n tt's y wen i was writing e 19 wishes in e book, i really was missing out tt usual "sao jiao1" tone n mentality.. hehe. n even yest's sms.. bt i still put in e part bout her being such a bright spark in my life. coz it's e truth. mus def send her a sweet sms. n i'm glad i did! hehe. coz it made her happy i tink!:P hehehe.

n dunno y jus nw wen we met, my worries n stuff were kinda missing.. hehe. n tong's expression n happiness wen she saw tt liverpool jacket was really worth e money, worth e 'betrayal' to my Man U for buying liverpool merchanise.. hehe.. yep.. n i guess i kinda was convinced tt actually tong is happy being w me being herself. it's nt tt i've imposed anythin on her.. jus tt wen we're tgt, we dun need any other activity to kill e time or seek comfort in. yep(: hehe.. we can jus sit at tt place n talk n talk n talk. hahahaha. yep.. of coz we wun haf like "zoo", "club" memories to retain.. bt we'll haf a lot of sitting at eating places memories to keep! hehehe. yep.. anw i really nt interested in those stuff, wat i like is only k! hehe. bt tong's english de. hehe. my best k partner is jus fangyi! hahaha.

yep.. i really had a fun time singing w fangyi jus nw.3hours. we jus kept singing. n it's nt 1 person 1 song. it's tgt! hehehe. so we really haf good lungs! hahaha. as in e songs we sing r bout e same, so we wun like bore each other out. n we both like to scream n yell. n of coz emo songs.hehehe. yep.. n i jus like to sing duet songs. hehe. n our chemistry nt tt bad la:P hehehe. at least i dun haf to worry bout boring yj n mama king out. nt sayin they v troublesome bt i would feel bad if fangyi n me jus hog onto e mike n sing for all we want! hehe. yep.. n she wun critique on my singing. in fact she wun mind my po4 yin1, yin1 bu4 zhun n stuff. n i realised coz i kept singing, i tink i was more accurate alr! hehe. e 1st time i felt this was last last sun on my b-dae celebrations.. dunno why felt like i could sing more accurately.. hehe. n jus nw really had tt feelin! hehe. shuang! bt of coz got those cannot make it moments also. haha. bt realised tt as long as i sing OUT.. if cannot hear, den raise my voice n control e music. hehe. den i can sing quite accurately! hehehehe. yep.. m jus afraid tt coz of e fun we had jus nw, nxt time k as a clique would be less satisfied.. bt shld b ok de. haha. coz wen nt singing, can crap. hehe. will b as entertained also(: hehe.e more e merrier. hehe. n if i wan to keep this nice fren close to heart, jus haf to ask her out! we're both on-ed for k sessions anytime as long as we aren't bugged down by tuition/work! hehehe.

yep. n sat she couldn't go shoppin w me for tong's present i was still a bit upset. bt i had hargao w me.. hehehe. n i had a fun time w hargao also! hehe. tho she caused me to spend quite a bit of money. hehe. bt at least we had fun! hahahaha. yep.. n i'm like always linkin her n tong up.. heh.

yep.. n back to tong!(: hehe. yep.. i really had a lot of fun! hehe. n i'm so glad tt i didn't like couldn't bear to let her go. hehe. tink coz she made me feel appreciated enough alr(: hehe. w her release of surprised-ness n joy wen she saw e cookies, e jacket n e book i made.. hehe. yep. n i had spend quality time w her. coz i kinda found e assurance i needed. hehe. yep.. n really nt nice to make zhi xin wait for her. i mean if i'm zhi xin, i would feel quite upset to miss out even more time w her coz she could only meet her for tt little while. hehe. come to tink of it, maybe tong loves me more than zhixin! hehe. so she kept tellin me it's ok, hehe. bt i was so worried tt zhixin cared for tong as much as i did, n if tong said it's ok to like miss out a bit of time w me, i would b so upset! hehe. yep. jiang1 xin1 bi xin1.. so i kept askin tong if she needed to leave n didn't selfishly tried to keep her.. hehe. so nice of me rite?:P hehe. maybe coz i really had fun already n i didn't haf to fear e loneliness after tt coz was meetin fangyi for my fav activity - k! hehe. yep.

n i guess being able to see tong again on fri did make me less nostalgia? hehe. yep. bt realised i'll only reach 8.. den after this, she flyin to shanghai on 14th, wen she's back, i would b about to fly to egypt alr.. den by e time i'm back, would b a month away.. nw i'm cherishin each day even more coz we're both like quite free. hehe. tho i aren't.. bt this mth jus haf e v free feeling! hehe. yep.. jus nw on way back, was so afraid.. i dunno how things will change in future. wen we start uni... wen she goes overseas nxt year, if she gets her chance.. n after tt.. recently it's like i meet up w her almost every fortnightly.. n i msg her everyday.. v afraid tt wen uni starts... yep..

bt nw feelin less upset than jus nw. hehe. bt still. i'm v happy(: hehe. n this is e first time i came specially to blog bout sth happy. usually i'll only die die blog for unhappy stuff. this time is e 1st(i guess) for happy stuff!:P hehe. yep.. coz i guess i wanted a good closure for her b-dae. haha. tho it's really interesting.. coz it's her b-dae.. nt mine:P hehe. yep.. n can't believe tong's b-dae is jus over like this. hehe. bt yep.. at least i really really enjoyed myself today!:D haven't really said this or felt an impact strong enuff to say this!:P hehe. n seems like today i had a full day of happiness. no unhappiness frm anywhere! hehe interesting..

dunno if e emo-ness for e past few days were god's intention of wanting me to really grow up n remove my reliance on tong.. or izzit to make me feel e happiness even more strongly today!:D hehe. yep. either way, i'm really glad tt i enjoyed today so much!:D hehe. wanted to say i'll force myself to grow independent, bt i still decided nt to. coz i wan to rely on my tong always.. bt i'll reduce my expectations so tt i wun b upset so easily.. yep.. bt i'll still "tail-gate" my tong!:P hehehe.. n anw i kinda "found back" fangyi.. e fangyi tt i'll haf e opportunity to whine to. hehe..

kk(: happy kheng shall go slp nw! so tired w e 4hours of slp today only! hehe. or rather yest.. hehe. yep! shall go slp for all i wan. tmr morn wake up mus prep for tuition le. hehe. n go meet up w ancestor, go surprise ade n maybe leena n dunno who tt ancestor mentioned. hehe. n go 4 tuition. come hm farm.. den look 4ward to my symbiosis on wed.. n i've to say tt e thing i'm lookin 4ward to most is fri's meet-up w tong again!:P hehe. man. reliance growing unhealthily again!!!!:S

kheng(:
04/05/10
status: happy kheng!:D