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hehe. shall come blog as i wait for my photos to b uploaded. dun dare to install e new photos uploader in case got virus or watever shit!:P hehe. yep. woke up this morn super emo-ly.. bt after tuition, felt so happy!(: hehe. n so happy nw at work.. hehe..

yep yep.. i really feel a lot 4 liya. base on wat does the aspire ppl n raihanah give her a "probation period" coz of her relationship w sunitha? i feel tt she nv like carry tales behind ppl's backs lo. tt time wen sunitha hanged up e call on her.. she confronted sunitha n den after tt she also ok alr wat. frm wat ic, is sunitha who is e one giving her attitude lo. n callin her names n talkin bad bout her on facebook.. who's e one at fault? i mean i can't pass a judgement to everyone out dere. bt at least in my heart, i noe it.. yep.. n jus coz she's e team leader n closer to raihanah, she gets to say her side of e story.. n liya has to take e blame. wtf?

e righteous sound within me is tellin me tt i shld speak up for liya. bt i really dun 1 to complicate things further.. 1stly, i dunno if liya is totally innocent tho i choose to believe her like totally. bt i nv noe.. 2ndly.. i really dun wish tt my last mth here to end v badly. n i dun like sunitha to give me face, nor haf e whole grp of girls facebooking bout some gorilla(ie, me) nxt! yep. n 3rdly, a reason to cover up for my 2nd reason, my selfishness.. i really dun tink it's a big deal for liya to lose this job. having to work after her "power" kena revolted, under a once fren, now team leader who doesn't like her n give her attitude n has mood tt changes like e weather.. even faster than e weather in fact. n colleagues who facebooked bout her doings.. n ppl startin to get into camps to bitch bout each other.. hmm. i mus b really careful bout wat i say, coz i dun wan to like form e other camp against sunitha they all.. nt tt i'm scared or anythin coz as i always say, i've nth to lose.. bt i dun wan to complicate e politics or result in it if it supposedly didn't exist b4 this.. yep. bt if raihanah they all really wan to talk to us individually, all of us.. n i feel tt things r gettin out of hand. i'll feedback honestly. bt again i'm a little afraid it'll cost sunitha her job.. or maybe resolve things on e surface where they seem ok bt inside, bitchin even harder.. hmm.. bt maybe wat i say wun haf impact also.. depending on hw things r..

yep.. maybe liya go out might nt find a better job. n she's gettin married n everythin costs money.. bt at least she tries.. n nv noe.. i mean this is only if she eventually gets ousted out. n i'm nt tryin to use chim words only.. i really mean "ousted out".. yep..

i really get v confused. esp on suzi n hidayah's stand. i feel tt hidayah knew wat they were talkin bout. bt she still went n continued to engage in e talk. suzi only said 1 thing, n i feel tt she didn't noe they were referrin to liya. she jus commented, thinkin it's sth else. yep.. n her facebook status update after tt seems to b hinting tt backstabbers aren't as deadly as killers, n tellin e CROs to tink WISELY. really tink tt she used e right word.. bt e rest went to like it. n tt's wen i tink it's such a joke. if i'm right in interpretating suzi's post, den e rest mus haf got it wrong.. n they can still go like it. it's like a LC way of seeing things.. like jus like like like blindly. tsk tsk.. yep. bt i may b wrong also la of coz.. yep.. bt anw.. tt nite i decided tt i shalln't post anythin coz even if i post in cinese, dere's sth known as translator esp wen iphone is so high-tech.. n e moment i comment, i would haf joined them alr.. even if i'm on e oppo camp frm them or haf no intentions of joinin them. yep. so i controlled n didn't post anything.. yep. n i'm proud of myself for nt havin joined them!(: hehe.

i'm very curious to ask suzi actually. bt dun wan la. i like our friendship to be simple like this, no politics involved n stuff. she tell me stories, i listen, she behave like a little girl, den i fuss back(: yep. happy will do(: hehe. of coz if she comes n says, i'll def listen. den i'll c if she's really bitchin. n if so, den i'll watch wat i say of coz.. yep..

n jus nw wen liya told me, i talked. i gave my comments. coz i really can't take it. i feel tt she's so poor thing. kena bitched bout by her colleauges.. n in e end still haf to take all e blame by e superiors..(haha. uncle lau is playin e game! hahahah.)n i really believe she's innocent tt's why i really tink tt it's so unfair 4 her.. yep.. n talkin bout backstabbing, i tink sunitha is doin tt more ba. in fact, she's e 1 doin it ba. look at hw she jumped at e opportunity to post so many things on facebook. n she can b so mean to say sth like "i'm so upset symbiosis has so little ppl today".. i can't help bt tink tt if i'm e one, hw sad it'll b 4 me to noe tt if it's little ppl, my colleagues would b finding it such a "pity"! wah. really is heartache..

dun like. frm nw on, i'll nt talk to her at all unless she does it to me. nt even jokin. coz i find her so LC. hmm. seems like if liya is out to sow sow discord, she has succeeded.. bt really. i dun tink sunitha's posts on fb were liya's idea rite? so she did things to turn me off herself, nt liya who induced tt. yep.n even if liya is e baddie i dun tink sunitha shld haf said those things, i noe ppl aren't perfect bt to say those kind of stuff really is v bad rite. i mean e thots themselves.. tsk..

n didn't liyana call liya names again? tt time after vilma's incident, she said she wun join e rest in gossiping. n yet she came to me yest callin liya names again.. n she still dare to use "follow e flow".. is she? she's starting e flow ba.. i really feel v off-ed.. haiz.. this time i round i aren't afraid of karma, coz she started all e bitchin first, n i nv go talk back behind her back to e ppl here. i only complain to tong, n i feel tt tt's fine, coz tong doesn't noe her n if she nv do anythin wrong, wat can i say. n i really can't take it tt's y i'm sayin to tong, nt coz i wan to bitch or spoil her reptutation. yep. maybe it's still wrong, bt this i dun care..

yep.. maybe if i'm her, i would feel v upset also. bein called a "rubbish" n stuff. bt i really dun tink liya would do such stuff. esp after yest n today's short talks w her.. maybe she didn't tell me tt.. n i jus feel tt it might b sunitha changin e stories or raihanah being inconsistent in her speech.. well. i tried tellin liyana this yest, bt she jus gave me e "ok... (u tink i care??)" look. totally nt covinced.. so i didn't bother to say any further, coz she wun believe me, n if she ever believes me, it would b coz she's afraid i would b angry.. n no pt.. i didn't wan to end up quarreling w her, nor do i wan to show my stand so clearly.. my stand bein on liya's side.. yep.. her look is jus like jie n gor's those "ya ya ya.." wen i tell them things, n i tink i kinda rolled my eyes coz of her reaction tt is alike gor n jie. bt sorry ah, my gor n jie r so diff frm her..

yep.i tink she feels v victimised. n she's behaving like a victim. jus a victim tt noes how to retaliate back.. bt i really choose to believe liya, coz she really dun look like tt type tt will bitch behind ppl's back, she's jus e "u nt happy izzit?" type wat. n if she bitched to suzi, y nt me? y will e version of her story sound so different wen i hear it frm her.. so i jus feel tt either ppl/some1 misinterpretated her words tt day or some1 really twisted e story. or maybe i'm jus stupid n believed wrongly in her. bt i certainly dun believe tt's true n i dun hope of coz.. bt i really dun tink so.

yep.. n is she tt pathetic if she noes how to retaliate back by bitchin on facebook n lettin all e CROs c? her "sizzling news....." really turned me off like a totally! man.. it's like so sacarstic.. n as i've always said, or maybe e first time i'm sayin it, it's so scary coz u nv noe wen u'll step on her toes n become e nxt person to be shot on fb.. yep.

n maybe she treats me as a good fren, bt e more she tells me, e more i distant myself frm her.. coz i really cannot agree w e way she handled this issue n this is bout style, so def nt this issue only.. jus tt i only managed to c for myself on this issue.. yep.. tt's y i AM afraid sometimes wen i talk 2 much to ppl, coz ppl will noe more n find out things tt maybe they dun really like. so maybe tt's y i only say things to close frens.. w e bond dere, i feel tt things r more acceptable.. like i did tink b4, wat if my frens turn out to be homos, i guess i'll still accept them. or if u ask me to befren a homo, i tink i'll also la.. haha. yep..

nw i guess i can really b sure i dun wan to use e bag she bot for me frm malaysia.. i wan to draw e line properly. yes. i've once treasured this friendship a lot. i enjoyed being w her v much.. bt things haf changed.. n changed coz of her financial handling methods.. nw drastically coz of e way she handled this.. yep. maybe i'm like guo4 he chai1 qiao-ing.. bt it's nv my intentions to make use of her to help me fit into fusion.. i've treated her as a real fren. nw it's also nt coz i'm leavin or haf found new sources of strength tt's y i'm like "kicking her aside".. it's coz of her character.. it's jus like e eg gor or sb else quoted 4 me, if u noe tt dere's a worm rottin inside ur body, do u wan to let it rot on or bear w e pain n get it out? yep.. maybe it's v mean of me to like suddenly change, bt i would rather do tt than to let things develop further n make myself unhappy. anw it's kinda no pain for me to end this thing also.. yep..

i'm NOT SAYING SHE'S A ROTTEN WORM!

haha. yep. man. e rain is so big tt i can feel e rain frm e door outside frm e helpdesk! wah.. thunnder!!:S

yep.. jus nw sunitha came back frm south tower, coz i went toilet at B1, actually purposely nt south coz jus dun feel like walkin in there, nth on btw us nw.. bt jus a bit dun feel like walking in, so i went B1, bt can haf excuse, coz i bot pens n drinks dere.. yep.. n wen she came back, i was engagin in e conversation btw her n liyana. nw dun 1 anymore.. mus stand firm to my ground. nt so brave as to confront/ignore them.. bt i will jus try nt to talk to them as much as possible. their actions really turn me off.. haiz..

i wonder if i find out tt liya is e bad guy, how would my stand change.. bt i guess nt much, coz sunitha n liyana really did v spiteful things.. yep..

man. e wind n rain r so strong tt they haf to lock e glass doors coz if nt e wind will blow the doors open.. hehe. bt it's so cool. like diff teams workin tgt, e security, CPG, cleaners n also e cisco police guys.. hehe. tt's wat i like..

hehe. tt facade cleanin guy came again.. n say i action nv call him. haha. feels good to haf someone like wooin me.. bt shall nt b so carried away to give him my no coz i guess we aren't meant for each other.. yep.. so i shalln't do anythin stupid.. hehe. yep.. hehe. bt feels shiok eh!:P hehe. bt i'm also quite scared he'll keep buggin me. bt he nv.. haha. so it's ok!:P hehe.

kk. shalln't blog anymore.. hehe. wah.. yep. i love tong! haha. suddenly tink of her! hehe.. buddies!:D

kheng(:
08-05-10
status: hehe.. feelin happy again. hehe. he's back. man. i'm so bimbotic!