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Yay! Happy! :D hehehe! Emotional roller coaster! Shld try bloggin usin case recordin at IMH room 10 method huh? Hehehe!

Seminar: finished case ppt
- pingping's case ppt was interesting
- mine was a little cui - din even noe wat e underlyin issue was
- Dr Lee reframed
- I checked w pau & Dr Lee
- Dr lee told me tt my instincts might nt b wrong -> i interpret it as i'm on e right track! :p hehehehe!

-whole class was so concerned bout my leg:
GQ: go see doc/take off!
Hongling: i can help u bandage ur leg
Jiahui: helped me carry stuff
Jeannette: we can go back tgt/i help u carry stuff
Mun ching, deb, arnand - all v concerned! :)

& nt forgettin pingping! Hehehe! She helped me carry stuff & still fu me w e other hand! Hehehe! She kept scoldin me naughty! Hehe! & it's a fun ride w her back to work! Love pingping totally! Such an adventure! Coz it rained! Hehehe!

-- hehe! Continuin e post nw! Today is wed le! Hehe! Today a lot more excitin! Hehehe! Maybe finish briefly bout yest first! :) --

Yeah! Went back! & den went to see cases w Ginn! Hehe! Actually only observed frm far! Bt ginn explained to me after e case! Heeh! & was preparin to take another case! Bt pt haven't see doc, so went back to prep! Haha! & nt bad leh! Can feel all e qn appearin in my head! Hehehh! Coz got time mah! Bt out pt is jus like tt! No time to tink tt much! So haf to jus do it! Heeh! Bt okay lah.. Hehe!

Den nicole came & asked if i wanna go room 10! Is coz she had to handle weiping's pt's out pt mf! Goodness! Wp was on MC. Den kim yoong & eunice got her to handle herself! I was like "wat?!?!" so i jus went & helped her! However nt competent i'm, i tink i'm still more familiar & shld b able to value add!

Yep! Struggled a bit w our askin! Coz nicole's chinese a bit a bit jiatlat! Could see her struggles jus like i do! Hehe! So i jus told her she had to ask this, explore tt as well! Hehe! & wen she was doin, i could see wat else she missed out! Coz observer mah..

Yeah! Den there was this issue bout pr's dg's income! Hehe! I went to check w e SWAs whether shld do self-dec or nt! Hehe! Quite happy i realised i need to do tt! Heeh! Den michael said if can, get income will b good also! Hee! So i went back to tell nic! She spoke to pt's dg on phone & coz pt's dg said she quittin soon! I ASSUMED she wasn't willin & told nicole suan le! I too happy w e self-decl form liao! Lol!

Den bout to end liao! Kim yoong appeared! & she stood there! & e impression i got was jus she was there coz we were cui! She had to come pick up e loose ends! Den i wondered if e SWAs did call her out! I jus had this feelin tt maybe michael did call her?

1) initially, he came over & told us we had to b serious! This is nt a game! Coz we were gigglin away! Bt tt was coz we were nervous.

2) i went to check e self-declaration thing.

3) he came over & pointed to his watch, tellin us we were takin v long.

Yeah! I'm nt angry w him for doin so! Coz i believe even if he did it, it was coz he was worried for us! Or worried bout e other MSW nt havin e space to see pt! Yeah!

After tt i asked myself, seems to b an irrational thot leh! Bt wen kim yoong appeared, her facial expression really sent tt msg! Tt she came coz we were cui!

Bt after tt i thot maybe her face is jus like this! Hehe! I actually could feel myself resistin her a little! Like a bit too eager to defend ourselves! Tt we noe! Maybe i wanted to prove to her tt i can de! Esp after last last wk's "blow"! Yep! Bt in terms of procedure, i was more able to reconcile! Coz tt isn't e first time she was doin it! Yep!

Den nicole went w her for another case! Den i went for Ginn's case! She alr started so i jus sat in! Den we saw e case, processed again! :) hehe! Went back quite affected! Texted nicole sayin i needed debrief! Den wen she came back i jus fed her w e info! Coz i note-take for her durin e session! Den after tt, she asked me wat i wanted to process. Den i asked if she was okay. She said okay lo, we also din noe wat to do.. I tink she was tryin to comfort me.. & i was like "bt i noe wat to do! & i was supposed to noe....... :'(" den i said "bt i knew.."(mumbling) den she said "oh, bt i din noe wat to do!" so i jus suan le, she also nt affected. I din wan to affect her! So i left! & wen we were doin work, huiwen wrote her a love note. Also nv write for me! *angry* & wen
i came back, i did tell huiwen i was v affected, bt she also nv care much..

So i was really quite sian! V much coz of my "performance" for e case, another was coz i felt tt i couldn't connect w them! I wun confide in marian! & huiwen & nicole alr auto disconnect liao! Julia is need one-on-one den i'll say de! & tt'll only happen wen there's no one ard! If nt e rest will b wonderin why i nv tell them.

Yep! Met tong & told her! I was really quite upset coz i feel tt cannot connect w huiwen! Tho i alr accepted tt she wun b listenin to me, bt in times of real sadness, u jus need someone to listen! & i'll still try my luck w her! Coz i hope she can be THE one to listen, & it was jus v disappointin wen she jus ignored hw upset i felt! Or maybe she din sense it! Maybe nt in tune like fiona? Bt fiona will noe if i say i v sad de leh..

Yah! So really v hurt & v sian! Can't even tell someone! :/ i noe some ppl is i auto strike out myself lah! Wanted to find brandon bt i thot kaiyi will b back today. So i thot i will reserve it to kaiyi! Hehe!

Yep! & at 520, super excitin! Ginn got a case & asked if i wanted to go! Of coz! Hahaha! & she allowed me to take e case! So glad i went, got to handle e case! & a bit of a confidence booster actually! Heheh!

Yeah! I went! Ginn replied to my qn tt there is no time, i jus do wat i tink i shld do! Hehe! I tink she thot i would give her a detailed session plan! Hahah! Bt no la, jus see wat to check! Haha! Bt yep! She said jus do! & b4 tt, wen we were walkin back after e 2nd case, i said if inconvenient can dun bring me. Den she said no lah, learnin where got convenient or nt de! Inconvenient also mus come! Hahah! Yep!

So i went! Looked at e records & jus did it! Still v blur! Like will see wrong info for compliance to TCU, & din see e dec Mf! Goodness! Bt jus hanged on & did it!

There was this classic moment wen i din noe wat else to ask! Had this urge to jus say "okay! Tt's it! :)" or turn to Ginn for help! Bt kaiyi said, "take ownership!" & own learnin pt frm previous case "even if in a rush, mus ask de still ask!" yep! So i turned to e screen instead & saw wat i was supposed to check - CDC money! Heheh! :D *victory moment* it totally felt like! Hehheeh!

Den there was also this moment pt jus went on & on, & after tt i gave e lost look & he stopped & asked "wat else do u need to do?" hahahah! Oops! Felt quite cui still actually! Heheh! Bt at least i finished e entire session! Quite properly at least i felt!

Bt i took quite long to decide on hw much to give! Initially i said dun give 100% den Ginn & i asked for some more info. & i hesistated & thot bout it! Hehe! After tt wen we went back, Ginn asked if it was really tt hard to come up w e amt! Hehe! I tink she meant is as a "aiyo, need to tink so long meh?" in e context of clinic closin! Hehehe! Bt she wasn't mean lah! :)) hehe! Den she asked me why did i hesitate nt to give! & got me to list out e reasons why i gave! Heheh! Yep! & processed w me! & shared w me e reasons! Hehe! Ginn can b quite a good sup also i tink! Hehe! Based on this experience lah! Hahaha! Yep! Bt i'm satisfied w my awesome sup kaiyi! :) hehe!

Den came back, marian, nic & hw were still waitin for me to go buy cards! So i had to make tong wait! & we went to buy! Got onto bus & coz they wanted me to sit down, i had e time to emo! Hehe! After comin back, i alr told pau i v sad bt no time to elaborate & will text her again! Hehe! Den she called me at 6pm! Hehe! Bt i was still seein e case! Hehe! & jus nice on bus had time! & so nicely i managed to finish rantin, get some support frm pau, reassure her b4 i forced a smile back onto my face wen i alighted! Hehe! Tt was motivated by e fact tt nic they all dun like emo ppl! Hehe! I din wan to b a nuisance! :p hehe! Bt it's quite good actually! Coz i stopped myself frm
Emo-ing, if nt i would haf emo-ed more & more!

Den excitedly went to meet tong! Heeh! Still a little affected actually! Hehe! Yep! Tong was angry w me wen she saw tt i went despite my limpin foot! She din noe my foot was tt bad! Heheh! Oops! & after tt she said she was more of "xin tong" for me! Aww!! So sweet lo!!!! Omg!!! <3

Hehe! Yep! & i ranted! & we explored e issue of ppl actually ignorin our sharin & movin on onto another issue! Hehe! Yep! & talked bout her bf, talked bout her work, shared bout my sup, talked bout social work & skills & all tt! Hehe! So awesome! & i told tong bout hw kaiyi is so special coz she is someone i like, respect & fear! Hahah! So if i can overcome my fear, i most prob can interact w other ppl in future le! Hehe! Coz she is e most high level de liao! Hahaha! Yep! & after today, i would say, i'm overcomin! Hehe!

Yeah! Bt she wasn't feelin too well, so we left after we ate! Hehe! Yep!! :D love tong! After e thing, i really felt tt it's therapeutic! Maybe coz she pointed out to me bout my expectations & dunno leh, jus felt tt i sai my piece, she responded & i felt totaly happy after tt! :D hehe! & tt marked e end of yest! Hehe!

Yawns! A bit tired w e spammin! Hehe! Still got today! Heheh! So excitin! Hahahah! Bt a bit tired! :p

Yep! & so today! Excitin! :D heheh! Was in office at 755! So cleared yest's case w Ginn first! Den she came at 815 to check w me sth! So meanin no Row Call rite? Hehe! Den at 830, i decided to go show her e reason & ask her for email add! Den frm there, go to kaiyi to check e longstay stuff w her! Heeh! So qiao! Wen i stood up, kaiyi came over! Hehe! She asked if i was gg to look for her, den i said yah! Haha!

Den i asked her hw she is, she said still a bit groggy! Cannot tink v well! Den she asked me hw i was! Den i said ok except my leg! Hehe! Den i showed her! Hahaha! Den i checked w her e things i wanted to check & she gave me a case to f/u! Quite interestin! Hehe! Den clement came over, asked me go do exercise! Siao! Kaiyi said "her leg injured lah" hahaha! Den thot can go help out w e triagin in e afternoon! Hehe! Coz supposed to haf dept meetin & e SWAs cannot b at Room10! Heeh! In e end, meetin cancelled! :( good tt my leg is spared! Hehe! Bt was waitin for some excitement lo! Hahah! Too bad! Hehe!

Wonderin if they'll put e dept meetin on nxt wed! Good tt at least it wun b systemic trg? Nt tt i hate systemic trg, bt my last afternoon liao! I dun wan to b doin trg! Hehe! I wan interaction w my sup! Hahahaha! Yeah! Bt nt sure leh! Hehe! See hw! I dun mind gg to help out w triagin if meetin is nxt wk! :p heheh! My last 1.5 hours of work spent doin e job! I dun mind! :D heheheh

Yeah! Bt nt confirmed yet! Shall see hw! Heheh! Bt i got e afternoon to clear my work! Hehe! Did e p/c, tho got one no pick up! Den churned my longstay reports! Heheh! Finally at e process of churnin out e report! Heheh! I went thru so many cycles! Key family particulars, key behaviour, den check thru all over again wat i needed to compare, track & edit, den nw churnin it out! Tink din get kaiyi right e first time! So doin so much work! Hehe! Bt it's ok! I'm learnin! :D heheh! & jus nw showed her e reports. E previous worker had some english error! Den kaiyi told me to watch my eng! Hehe! Bt i din explain! Coz i nv check also! :p & e behaviour part i input-ed.. I also din check again! :p hehe! Seriously, it tt was e quality of work to print out, really quite cui! Lol! I still can't do it right e first time! Bt i told myself nt to b so hard on myself! Hehe! & could hear kaiyi's "very good" quite a few times & at e end b4 she handed me back my thumbdrive also! Hehe! Bt i learn by watchin also! So i noe wat she wants nw! Hehe! Bt i'll still let her check thru b4 printin! Dependin on whether she wants or nt! Hehe! :) yep!

& den i asked her for e lunch tmr! Hha! She like a bit mian qiang! Hehe! Bt she said ok! Den i told her to ask cheryl also! Hehe! Manners! Tho a few of us feel uncomfy bout it! Heeh! Bt yeah, manners! :) hehe! & to make it less "despo", i jus checked w brandon! Heheh!

Yep! Tho marian was e one who suggested it, i also hope e lunch can take place! Hehehe! :D

Den after tt went to do my stuff, & made e p/c at 5! Hehe! Den went to discuss w kaiyi after i ended e call! Hehe! It's damn epic! She shared e pt's comments w me! Hahaha! She repeated wat e pt said "aiyah, (in chinese) only 3 cans of beans only mah, beans leh, (english) b-e-a-n-s, beans leh!" hahahah! & she was shakin head as she said & laughin also! & it's really amusin for me, so i laughed out loud! Hahahah!

Yeah! & e another pt's f/u! Hehe! I told her wat i did & said need psychiatrist report! Den i said "i pass e form to u?" den i went "or i go find e doctor myself?" heheh! Den she said "u do can?" hahahah! Yeah! So ok, settled! :) & i'll do it! ;) hehe! Den she told me she in a rush! Hahah!

Yep! :) so today concluded quite well! I churned out e recordin & sent her b4 i left! :) hehe!

& huiwen talked to me at 4 plus after she came back frm her ward & wen we were walkin out, hehe, e awkward feelin disappeared! :) hehe! Bt i dunno whether will come back or nt! Hehe! Yeah! :))

& i haven't talk bout e most excitin thing! Heheh! Supervision today!

Today was excitin in terms of tt! Busy coz of e longstay report & f/u! Bt at least i was doin sth! & can feel more independence so actually quite okay! :) bt e supervision totally made today a memorable day! I termed it "therapeutic wed"! Coz e last time i had this therapeutic supervision was on a wed also! :D hheh! Yep! :))

Gg for tuition nw! Ltr den talk bout this therapeutic supervision! :D heheh!

:))

Kheng.