*emo emo*

Hmm.. Emo emo! Today had our final grp supervision & like a mini farewell! :(:(

Hmm.. Quite upset! Heeh! E grp supervision wasn't as impactful as i thot it would b! Coz i din really say much during e grp sup also! Heeh! Alot tt i wanted to say to my sup! Haha! Bt i dun wan this context! Hehe! I only like e fact tt all e sups were in! A v cosy feeling!! <3 hehehe!

Bt saw hw my sup did e grp work! Haha' still actively learnin k! Heheh! Bt really thank god i din haf to do it! Coz it would b so weird! Jus nw i was enjoyin! If i've to facilitate, jus kill me! Hahahah!

Nt supposed to b bloggin bout it! Bt i'm doin it! Coz jus nw after it ended, really felt quite emo! Bt was still playin along w nicole they all! Hehe! Den a little tired! Heeh! Den super dun feel like gg for e project "meetin"! Heeh! Walked ard w juju & met pingping & pau at least! :D heheheh!

Yep! Bt e project doin was still enjoyable! :) hehe! & glad i went! Tb-mate seems fine w me? Haha! At least he was tellin me things! Hehe! Nt too sure if he's truly fine, bt yep, nt makin guesses! Hehe! & changlok so tired also go, i really no excuse sia! Heeh!

Yep! & nw okay le! :D hehe! Nt as emo as jus nw! Hehe! & i tink coz haf e photo i took w kaiyi today! Heeh! So prettay! Heheheh! I like e photo so much! :D hehehe!

Bt i'm tinkin of last few days, i feel sad again! :( hee! Was reminded of hw dabong & i were cryin after farewell at yah! Omg! This time round, no one for me to say to! Tt's why i mus cry & emo at home! Heheh! Yeah! :( den i'll look at wat i've done for e entire placement & record down all e memories & teachable & memorable moments! Hehehe! Of coz my sup will form e main bulk of it! *winks*

hehe! Really quite sad! Jus can't form tt personal r/s! :( hehe! Today had e chance bt i still stood aside! E eatin part totally no interaction! :(

Yah! & e only thing i could do was to arrange chairs for her b4 session started & after session ended! Hehe! & i jus helped her take her 2 phones, paper, pen & scarf back to her seat! Hehe! Paei sun saw it! Hehe! She sure tink i'm v sweet! Hehehe! Bt kaiyi asked me off e lights mah, so of coz i wun leave her things in e room! Heheh! Yep! & jus haf tt personal connection feelin. My sup, her stuff, i take for her! Heheheh!

Goodness! Nxt wk my sup is gg to bring marian also! :( today i saw a case on my own! Quite cool actually! Hehehe! & was thinkin nxt wk jus see e last few cases w my sup, if marian comes along, it'll b like... So weird! I dun like 3 ppl, & tho i wan feedback, i really dun wan marian to b ard! Sorry, i noe i'm possessive of my sup also! :/

& i'm e one who belongs to outpatient lo! Was thinkin if kaiyi asks us to go for e row call tgt, see case tgt... :/ it's my zhuan shu quan li lo! I also haf morbid jealousy! Bt i wun act out! Hahaha!

Yah! Nt tt i dun wan marian to learn, bt my last few days w my sup leh, was hopin for private time! :( bt i also noe morbid jealousy acts up, eventually only will 一拍两散! Most prob my sup wun even get any case/bring us along! Or maybe marian will b like me? Hehe! Would rather "reject" coz tink e other party's morbid jealousy is so immature! Hahahah!

Bt i also noe rite, if given e chance, she sure would rather follow her sup de! & her last few days liao, no reason to short-change her also! & her sup took care of me, only right for my sup to take care back of her! Hehe!

Yeah! & i hope my sup dun say "ok! Ask marian go w u!" i tink tt's more stressful for me lo! & actually i so wan to tell her bout me preferrin nt to work w marian lo! Bt really jus cannot say lah.. Haiz! I dun wan to b seen as a bitch-er also! Yep!

Today wen marian mentioned bout hw grp work tt autonomy was one of her takeaway, i was like *hmm, discomfort* & i got look at kaiyi! Hahaha! Miao! See whether she did sense my discomfort! Hahaha! Bt i was jus busy noddin away! :p to conceal actually! :p hehehe!

Yah, jiu shi zhe yang lo! Yep!

& thinkin whether kaiyi will give me time on wed or nt! Or will it b meaningful! Coz it's like today i shared a bit le, mon during final evaluation, we most prob will talk bout this again! Hehe! So nt sure if i request again on wed, will it b meaningful & still therapeutic (to my departure) or nt! Hehe!

Yeah! & i'm jus gg to leave this way lo, no personal r/s built w my sup! Haiz! Bt shalln't b greedy! Hehe! At least e workin r/s managed to reach a good level! I really tink so! :D hehe!

Today was fun & excitin! Morn she came to pass me my log! Heeh! Den i asked her bout cases! Hehe! Den i went to settle e stuff w ginn(kaiyi went for meetin!) oh yah! I read my learnin log b4 gg to print e stuff! Hehe! So empowerin! All e smiley faces & "good job"! Hahaha! Maybe coz i reflected more positive stuff than negative stuff! Hehehs!

Den was back at my table kio-ing stuff den kaiyi asked me to go see case on her behalf! Den i was like e "har, why u dun wan to go w me?" totally like a kid's appeal! & kaiyi jus gave her cheeky laugh "i got meetin!" hahah! I'll armh chioh everytime i tink of this! Hahaha! Coz i noe kaiyi has e secret intention to throw me there to try myself also! Hahahah! & meetin was a jus nice thing! Hahaha! Bt nt too bad! Hehe! At least i tink i did try to sit up right, do wat i was supposed to do & also build tt little bit of rapport! Hehehe! 2nd case was worse bt kaiyi shared w me hw i could improve! Hehe! I giggled! :p coz i noe i asked v weirdly! Hehehe!

Oh yah! This morn kaiyi talked to me quite casually! Wen we were discussin tt pt's case! Lol! I tink she was tryin v hard leh! Hehehe! Bt i was ok w it! E more casual e better, jus tt nt used to it lah of coz! Hehehe!

If i can tell kaiyi sth, i would say tt actually i would love to haf a good personal r/s w u too, jus tt i'll always distance myself! Heehe! Coz of fear perhaps! Like today durin grp supervision, i knew she was like "er.." or "???" at many points wen we giggled/laughed! Lol! Hehe! Generation gap! :p bt yeah..

Okay lah, as i'm sayin, i'm also enjoyin today! & nt really tt emo nw! Heeh! Bloggin might b powerful & therapeutic coz i get to say e things tt i cannot say, dare not say! Heheh! Nt jus to kaiyi, bt also my other conflicts(like marian's!) hehe!

Yep! Bt anw, she got B+ only leh! Initially i was thinkin r rest will get A, den i say B+ quite okay rite? Anw, i thot it was a grade tt signify average! Hehe! & i give myself tt, sure okay de! Hehe! Even if i'm lousy, at least for my effort, i deserve tt grade rite? Hehehe! I thot of things i can ask on wed le! If i get to speak to kaiyi! Mus make sure she reserve a slot for me! I dun care! Heheh! See whether she ok w it or nt! :p hehehe! Scarly she tell me "har, no time leh" or "can dun wan?" den i'll b damn sad leh! ;( hehehe! I'm thinkin of askin her after e evaluation on mon! Heheh! Scared she reject me! :( heheh

I tink wat i really like is this feelin of being protected, in future wen i go out to work, even if i've supervision, also dunno whether will i get so much supervision or nt. new worker will get regular supervision like nw de rite? Hehehe! As i tink i need it to brush up my skills! Hehe! Nt sure will i get another good supervisor or nt, bt as of nw, i'm nt lookin at havin someone replace kaiyi! Hahaha! She is still special as her own nw! Hehehe! Maybe by then kaiyi wun b impt to me liao! :p hehehe!

Yep! K! Time to slp! Still hopin for a theapeutic ending to my placement actually! Hehe! Well, all good things come to an end! :)

Kheng! :)
Tho sad at e thot of placement ending, smiley is still on!