Oops!

Opps! I accidentally clicked on kaiyi's phone no! Not sure if it did get thru & she noes i called her! If she ask, so paiseh! Hahahah! Bt nvm! Anw i'm gg to pretend nothin happened! Hehe! Since i can't b sure if it did get thru, i shalln't brood over it! Hehe! If it does, coz she doesn't haf my no on her private phone, she wun noe i called! Hehe! If she does & doesn't check, den dun care also! Hehe! If she checks, den say sorry! Hahah! It was an accident! Hehehe!

Yeah! Goodness! Slept jus nw on e sofa! Really v long nv tink of my story liao! Coz so tired for e past 10 wks, everyday come back will jus auto concus! Dun even need to tink of story to transit me into my sleep! :p hehe!

Omg! Leg aching! Dunno can play bmt or not! :/

Hee! & this is gg to b damn epic.. Might sound mean bt well....

Jus nw my dad asked me to go over & talked to me! I was in e kitchen den he wanted to talk to me. He asked if placement was over, den i said yes. Den i wanted to walk away liao, den he asked me back..

He held on to my arm & said he v long nv touch her xiao mei alr.. Nt e sick "touch", more of sayang.. Bt sorry, we've nv had tt attachment, if he touches me, tho i dun tink tt's molest, i dun feel comfy also! Legs & hands okay, bt butt i also dun feel comfy! & it was so not close tt i could feel myself standing at such a as far away as possible distance wen he held on to my arm.. Bt we really nt tt close! I dun feel comfortable gg near him or him holding on/touchin me!

Den he said today is his bdae, it sounded like an appeal for me to wish him happy bdae? Or to spend time w him? Or watever, den i said "is tmr right!" i referred to e eng bdae! Yeah! Den i tried to siam asap!

I really haf no r/s w him, very hard to connect.. Yest over dinner my sis said tt i wun eat meals w my dad & i said, yah, i wun! Nt tt i'm proud of it or anythin, bt i really will avoid eatin w him at all costs! Coz there's no connection. I noe it's ok rite, jus eat, bt i really jus wun! Maybe he is ok w jus havin me there to accompany him, bt to me, 人在，心不在 - equally bad! Yeah! & i really dun wan to go, there is e resistance there & i wun compromise. It's that bad.. Yah! Maybe i'll get karma in future? Bt i really jus un feel like doing it.. Yah!

Actually my family interaction pattern is dysfunctional also mah.. Jus wonderin in future if let's say my dad needs to stay at some home, den i see a MSW/SW, lol, e person might b tryin to ascertain my family's interaction patterns also rite? Tt's super lol! Bt yah, tt'll b it luh.. Really is no r/s built since young... 感情这种事，很难勉强, right? :/

Yep! Tt's it! End of all e "oops" for today! Hehehe! As of nw! :p

Kheng :)